nowadays i become a secret admirer of someone. u may wonder why is the title says 'I adore her'. yes, i adore a girl. she's not my mom, sister, friend or someone who i really know. she's a stranger. we are in the same school but she's in STM and im in SMA. she's a first grade student that's why ive just known her recently.
As we know STM's students mostly boys so she looks like a boy. a-handsome-freakin-cool-boy. as i first saw her i thought she really handsome and at the same time He's Beautiful (a Korean Drama) was happening so we called her Go Min Nam. we often talked about her. the way she walked, whip hair, smile, and her sharp sight.
every Monday at the ceremony flag we always looked for her. and everyday we look around the school seeking for her.
recently we know her name, im not gonna type it but her initial is L.O. we know her schedule, she school in the morning every monday, tuesday, and wednesday. the time we could meet her because in others day she school in daytime and we couldnt meet her.
we were like fans looking for our idol. sometimes my friends tried to take her pict secretly but they were always fail LOL.
ok till this line u probably wonder why am i adore her like bitch. u may know me as a girl and i tell ya that i like a girl. i bet u think that im a lesbian now.
naaah, actually im afraid too. ive never adore a girl before. perhaps my daddy doesnt let me to date a boy till now but i dont wanna try a wrong way.
I still love my boy Justin Bieber but she's in my real life. she walk back and forth in front of me with his cool style. even no guys in our school as cool as her.
but the main theme havent started. continue reading please . . .
yesterday when we were watching a Futsal match we saw her. a friend dare us to ask her phone number and she did it. she got her number. my others friends saved her number too except me. i dont have a cellphone LOL.
in the night i wondered what is my friend texted to her? and i couldnt wait till the next day.
and todaayyyy my friends told everything that surprised me.
she said that the-girl is a lesbian :O
actually we thought that she's a normal girl before. we just adore her as a cool person and didnt want to have a relationship with her. i even thought that she has a boyfriend. she told everything to my friend. im a lil bit scared and sad too. how can a handsome half beautiful like her is a lesbian. i mean ok we all know that lesbian, gay, or even bisexual is ordinary these days but OMG. . . i admit that i adore her and i acted like a lesbian too but tha fact is im a normal girl.
okok the words run out. i cant continuing this post.
this is probably weird. all i wanted is be her friend. JUST FRIENDS. not more. perhaps she wont like me but im scared if we were friends she would take me to the wrong way. she has told my friend about their community, u know a-lesbian-community and she invite my friend to join with her. Noooo she may know us as her fans but we are different. we are definitely a normal girls. we still like boys. even half of us doesnt have BF.
until this im confused what to type.
i regret bout her. if i care with her i should take her back to the right way. God says that if we know something wrong we have to make it right. that's what i supposed to do. but im just a stranger. we are not so close enough.
i have to end this post. this is getting weird and idk what to type anymore
so here it is some picts of her that i stole from her facebook :p
u see? she's so handsome, cool and . . . okok i know i should end this post right away. i'll tell ya bout this later.wait, i have a question: what would my dad do if he knew that i like a girl? how about bring her to my house and see his reaction LOL
