Justin Bieber

Heyya. Today must be 1^st March, but I’m writing this a week before. 1^st March is one of my favorite date because two important persons for me are having birthday! Yes, my lil sister and of course, you should probably know about the-one-and-only Justin Bieber. Y U NO EXCITED??

Okay, ehm. First thing first I would like to say Happy Birthday to both of em. Wish you a happy and long life. I can’t ask for more than your best of your life. But I’m dedicating this post to my-one-and-only Justin Bieber. Yup, today must be your best day of a year. You’re 18 now. OMG we’re in the same age again. I won’t ever feel older than you now LOL. I just can’t believe I’ve been supporting this boy for over two years now. A senior Belieber, eh? Haha. I still remember the first time I saw him on a magz. I told you, it was a request to put up him on the magz. I started to think he was an actor, hahaa. I started searching on Google who he was and I figured out he is a singer. A new artist. His 1^st album was released on 17^th September 2009. It called My World and I still remember I got it just days before Valentine. Yes, his first single, One Time, released on August. He is the second teenage singer after Stevie Wonder who hit Billboard Chart with 4 songs all at once. Proud of you, boy :’)

Back to the first time, I downloaded his single, One Time. And the first thought of me after listened it was “did I download it wrong? I thought Justin Bieber was a boy. And why is this ‘One Time’ singer is a girl?” that was mindfuck. Lol. I’m sure you agree with me. The old voice of Justin was so lame for boy. It was kinda girl’s voice. But for me, it was amazing listened to an awesome song. He is a talented artist. I knew it from the start. I don’t care what haters said that he’s more like girls. I thought so but what’s the matter? He has amazing voice than any boys. It’s different. He has a good vocal technique. No, awesome! His voice was so high even like girls. And I was dying in love with his magical awesome voice from the first time.

Since then, I started collect stuff of him. Magz, T-shirt, CDs, posters and anything bout him. That’s definitely me. I always wanted to collect all stuff and (wished) never missed one. I just want to have them all and no doubt to spend so much charge on them. I actually hate this kinda bad habit. That’s why I’m afraid to like anyone because I will do anything to get every thingy of em. Back to the top, yeah, I love him like crazy. His flip hair, his high voice, his attractive and funny face when he’s makin’ faces. Everything makes me going insane! But I’m telling you, the old Justin wasn’t handsome either hot. Yeah, hahaa it’s kinda funny when you say this kinda cheer face is handsome or so.

He was so umm, common face or what. The only thing that made him different was his flip hair. It was so trend. All of the boys around the world made it as a trend hairstyle. LOL. But I think the only one who proper to use it was his himself. And yeah, the first booming and very popular song was released. The Baby became hits on every charts. It could possibly be in the top positions. And the second album was released on March 23^rd. My Worlds 2.0, my second cds. This boy became my new addiction.

Yeah, that was me adoring this boy so much. But I missed his concert last year. That was my deep regret. I don’t know after being his number one fan all this time, I just missed it without any chance to get the tix. That was such an epicfail. And now he’s growing so fast like I couldn’t believe it at all. It’s like so yesterday when he said he loves girls and he wouldn’t doubt to having dates with fans but now he has a longlast relationship with his girlfriend, Selena Gomes. Break my heart easily.

He’s 18^th today. Almost three years passed quickly since the boy with gray hoodie singing very cheerfully with Usher. Nowadays, no flip hair or childish character but cool, hot and man swag he got. Yeah, he’s swagger a lot than the first time. I’m not blaming anyone but I think he’s changing he’s character so much because of his girlfriend. There’s bad and good sides for us, Beliebers. But it’s okay, I like him though. By the way I know there are songs that never get old for me. One Time, Common Denominator, One Less Lonely Girl, Overboard, Never Let You Go, and Fa La La. I love them most. Okay, I just don’t know why it is called 'most'. I like them all. Seriously.

Another reason of loving him for me because he has encouraged me so much. He becomes a hero for me all this time. He has showed us how to believe in everything because everything is reachable. Don’t care how high your dream, there MUST BE a way to straight to it. I know it seems too much, but instead I found something important in believe. You know it has strengthful meaning. You can be anything you want. You just have to dream it and believe it. Also with many effort and hard pray. Life is just to waste if you don’t use the dream itself. Just dreaming because it’s free HAHA. You know, Justin had always been a normal boy. He sang and uploaded it on YouTube. Who knows he would become this great and popular? Just with high dreams and faithful you could get the world. He’s not just an idol for me. He’s more like a reflection of what I always wanted to be. He can then why couldn’t we? He sings in front of all people. He makes his family proud. He travels around the world. He becomes the most guy that girls wanted the most. He was born to be somebody. And I believe I have a chance to be somebody too.

This time I’m thankfully to him. He made me proud as I am. He made me not afraid at all of dreaming high. He makes me proud to be a daydreamer LOL. I figured out that NEVER SAY NEVER words are really works out! It’s not easy to believe but if you have faith, anything can be done easily. That’s what he taught me. He taught me to be ME with no doubt. As I’m growing too, I don’t care of what outside him. I adore him inside, his heart is important. It’s not important his looks changed so much. No flip hair. No cheerful smile. The important thing is he still himself. Proud to be a heartthrob that start from nothing. A nobody from a small town turning into a rising star. A hero for much people, especially girls. And the important one is he never ignore fans. He loves us most. He proud to have Beliebers all the way. I know it’s ridiculous to realized that he don’t even know that I’m exist but at least I’m part of Beliebers and he loves Beliebers. PROUD and SWAG!

At the last, I don’t know if I can’t stop for being a Belieber. I don’t want to, perhaps. Everytime I see him it’s like a tingle on my stomach and says “Hey, you could be like him too” or “don’t lose faith. There’s always a way for you to get chance to meet him”. I told you one of my greatest dream is to meet him in person. And I wish if the time comes, nobody but us. No Selena lol. I’ve been waiting so long then it will be very helplessly with Selena around. Even they had have bunch of children I don’t care. Just back off when I had times with Justin! LOL. So yeah, I believe the right time will come when I’m ready for it. I thought I wasn’t ready to attend his concert. Maybe next chance I will. I don’t wanna lose my believe and faith in God. I always knew He gives the best for me.

Now, He's been very busy recording the new album BELIEVE. I wish I just could buy the new album. Seriously, I don't wanna miss it but I have no money enough this time. I have bunch of stuff I wanted to buy. Just wait for album to release please. And still planning to get a chance to attend his concert. Maybe next year. I don't know but i gotta prepare for it, do I? And I would like to show you a video of him and friends kinda lipsync Call Me Maybe from Carly Rae Japsen. I found it kinda funny things though there's a part of envious JELENA.

And yesterday Live My Life, Far East Movement ft. Justin Bieber was on iTunes. It feel like pay my yearn for Justin song all this time. Proud :D

Anyway, before the words run out I wanna say once again Happy Birthday to my favorite boy. You’re priceless to me. You’re the motivator of my life. You’re my everything even though you don’t think so. Wish me every luck. I wanna be like you! The dreams chaser. Believe In Everything Because Everything’s Reachable. That’s what BIEBER means. Thanks to your encouragement. They all are meaningful to me. I would never lose faith and hopes. Still NEVER SAY NEVER!

Hey, I don't know if it'll make sense or not but I feel like I gotta mention you that I've been dying addicted with Korean. I don't know but is it makes sense if I become an ELF? OMG I just can't admit it. It's kinda hard for me to be a Belieber then why do I wish to be an Elf at the same time. This Bieber Fever can't be more worse than it if I become two fans of different idol. Yeah, you're thinking what I'm thinking. That would be a bad idea. Just ignore this one. Kbye

“If you don’t dream big, what’s the use of dreaming? If there’s no faith, there’s no worth believing!”

Review: Infinitely Yours

Annyeonghaseo!
How’s life? As this is holiday, for me. And I have nothing to do, so these days I feel like I’m gonna read as much books as I can to kill the boredomness. I just read a book called Infinetely Yours that written by Orizuka. A female author from Indonesia. It’s published by Gagas Media. Before review it, I wanna tell you that the idea was about Korean. All about Korean. The author once said, she made it because the publisher asked her to write a novel about vocation. Because she’s crazy about Korean, so she decided to write about the Ginseng country.

I knew it first when I saw the review from one friend’ blog. I was not exactly put interested on it because it said for all K-pop lovers, you’ll like it. As I’m not a K-pop lovers, I didn’t think the book is interesting. Ok, I told you I had had a deep crush to Kim Bum once. When the Boys Before Flowers drama was VERY booming. I started liking all about Korean. Until now, I guess I still. But I’m denying as a K-Pop lovers. I actually didn’t think it is something I have to liked because I didn’t have any idea of what they’re singing. My friend had said once, she doesn’t like English songs because she didn’t understand the meaning. I understand now as I’m not sure what I REALLY listen to when I listen to Korean songs. But this, or some books make me fell in love again with this country. Everything! I like the country, especially Seoul. It’s like one of romantic country in the world. It had all words of cute! The people, the language, the places. Kinda dreamland, I think. And started from now on I will try as hard as I can to learn Korean language. And it also not to lose a chance for me to liking K-pop. Hahaa.

But now, let’s see the blurp of the book:

Orang bilang, pertemuan pertama selalu kebetulan. Tapi, bagaimana caramu menjelaskan pertemuan-pertemuan kita selanjutnya? Apakah Tuhan campur tangan di dalamnya?

Kita bukanlah dua garis yang tak sengaja bertabrakan. Sekeras apa pun usaha kita berdua, saling menjauhkan diri—dan menjauhkan hati—pada akhirnya akan bertemu kembali.

Kau tak percaya takdir, aku pun tidak. Karenanya, hanya ada satu cara untuk membuktikannya….
Kau, aku, dan perjalanan ini.

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“Kocak! Wajib dibaca dan dikoleksi Kpoppers maupun non-Kpoppers supaya lebih mengenal Korea! Jjang!” – Edwin Joo, head admin of http://KoreanUpdates.com


“Di bawah sihir romantisme Korea, dua kepribadian berbeda bertualang bersama. A very funny yet entertaining love story!” – Lia Indra Andriana, penulis SeoulMate

Jingga was playing her PSP while waiting for her group tour when someone crashed on her and made her game console’s sliding freely on the floor. Before she could save it, a trolly accidently grinded it out. She still couldn’t had an idea what was happened when a guy with big Rayban gave her a card and asked her to contact him two weeks later to compentation its damaged because he’s in hurry. Jingga took it and the guy passed through to the departure’s gate. Inside, Jingga met him again as they were in the same group. Because they will be together in the vocation, the guy who told her name was Rayan, promised to responsible her PSP as soon as he find ATM.

The tour guide, Mr. Darma give an instruction that they had to look after each other mate. Rayan was very guilty and wonder he would be the Energizer Rabbit’s mate, Jingga. Rayan gave her that called because he found that girl, who Rayan thought she was about 17 or so, are very active, over energy, noisy, and annoying. The doubt was right. They shared seats on airplanes which made they were couple who had to take care each other till the vocation end.

On the way, Jingga had never lose words or even tired. She keep annoyed Rayan about K-pop or anything bout Korean. Rayan actually hates it. He hates Korea also everything about it because it has take over someone who he loves most. Instead, the girl on his side was keep blabbering about a tour guide that she met last year in Seoul who she found very attractive to her. He just like a K-pop star. She keep asking Rayan his opinion about the tour guide’s guy by his picture she took last year. She very proud to present it to him but he just say that the guy is beautiful. He truly thought that Korean guy has a beautiful looks. He thought if this girl dating with the guy, he could decide who’s prettier.

But when they arrived in Incheon International airport, Rayan found a passport on the floor. It must belong to one of his tour group. When he take a look who’s the owner, he couldn’t believe that it possessed to the noisy girl and he just saw that she was born on 86. It unbelievable for him because the girl had acted like a teenager all this time. And he realized something that she also called him uncle but the case is he was just three years older of her. The unlucky day goes on. On the bus he had to shared seats again. And the girl kept on talking when he dying tried to not give her any attention. 

Jingga was very shocked when the guy beside her was look alike one of Korean actor. But she couldn’t understand why the guy is very bad, cold, and clumsy. Unlike the Korean actor. But she keep on talk as much as she can with him just to made them not awkward because she hates awkward. At last she met her prince charming Yun Jae. The tour guide. She’s just dreaming of him over a year and got chance to makes it true but another destiny pulled her out. She had to skipped and through a journey with Rayan who was looking for his x-girlfriend. And the journey begins…

After met his girlfriend Mariska, who decided to married a Korean guy, they decided to go back to the tour instead they found that the tour had go far away from there. At a moment, Rayan had robbed by someone so he had to hang everything to Jingga. Jingga decided to give him a ‘Romantic Tour’. They visited some places which symbol of romantic in Seoul. There’s a place that you could wish for everlasting relationship by only hang a locked on the gate and threw away the key. They tried it even though Rayan had to throw away his shamed to do it. By Jingga’s forces, Rayan finally do it. In every moments, Jingga collect as much pictures of Rayan as she could take by Instax and stick it to a journal book. Rayan let her do it because she can’t do anything except let her do anything she wanted. They also buy couple T which was very odd to Rayan. He never wore a purple hoodie which looked cute on him in his entire life. He cursed it because this girl he just known succeed make him wore it. Not also the hoodie, Jingga bought a couple ring to him and forced him to put it on his finger. 

The Romantic Tour goes on as Rayan found Jingga as a freak but also cute girl. He couldn’t believe his thoughts. He just compliment Jingga, the most annoyed and noise girl he ever met. But he can’t deny it as his Romantic Tour with Jingga must be over and joined back with their first group tour. And something distracted him. He figured out that Yun Jae had the same feeling with Jingga. He punched him as a responsible for kidnapped Jingga for days. Yun Jae gave him warned not to get near to Jingga. For a while, Rayan wouldn’t want to give up but he saw something that made him backup and give up. What happened with Rayan and Jingga? Just read it!

For me, this book is very entertaining and easy to read. The plot wasn’t complicated. Very enjoyable to read and funny. The dialogue mixed with sense of humor. The thoughts and words of Rayan had always made me laugh because he usually says something funny of his cynical sense. Besides, it more like drama which we can find in serial tv. That’s why it’s cute for me. though It’s a little bit unlogical but it supposed to entertain so what's the matter? And they talked about destiny. Chances and accidents but they also destiny. I like when Mariska told Rayan about magnet theory. “A same side of magnet  will never come together. That’s why two person who have a same personalities and character will never get along happily.” I think it’s right. But sometimes it’s very hard to think about how long indeed different people like Jingga and Rayan could get along. Because they have totally different characters. It’s funny. Haha.

But the author make it simple. It’s not about love story but also a vocation in a beautiful country. Orizuka once said she never come to Seoul. It’s funny when she could write a perfect story like this. Told the readers about how beautiful Seoul is. I could imagine the whole city in my mind. two thumbs up for you, Orizuka. And also, I like her pen name ;)

Everyone has their own standard for a good book. But for me, this book is enjoyable read. I swear I could repeat it thousand times if I want. Very entertaining, funny, and contained some important messages for the reader. For you who fell in love with Korea as I did, you have to read this one. And also decided what your own opinion.

By the way, I finished it last night. Midnight, very late. About 02.00 AM. I swear I couldn’t got my hands off it. Guess how interesting this book. And I also got surprise this morning when I mentioned the author, @authorizuka, and she replied my mention. I was hyped!

But I felt very sleepy now. And I must stop this right away. Thanks for reading. I really wish you want to read it too as excited as me. 

Sleepy though. Gnite. Annyeonghigaseyo! 

Review: Sunshine Becomes You

Finally, the day has come. I’m gonna review the book that I really WANTED to read lately. Sunshine Becomes You. OMG I’m hyped when I got it on my hand. After weeks carving for it, I read it finally. It’s written by one of my favorite author, Ilana Tan. I’ve reviewed her last books so I can wait for review this one! This book was amazing. Anyway, cause I’m not good at telling story in English so I decided to write it in Bahasa. Hope you enjoy my review J

Ini kisah yang terjadi di bawah langit New York…

Tentang harapan yang muncul di tengah keputusasaan…

Tentang impian yang bertahan di antara keraguan…

Dan tentang cinta yang memberikan alasan untuk

bertahan hidup.

Awalnya, Alex Hirano lebih memilih jauh-jauh dari gadis itu --malaikat kegelapannya yang membuatnya cacat.

Kemudian  Mia Clark tertawa, dan Alex beratanya-tanya bagaimana ia bisa berpikir gadis yang memiliki tawa secerah matahari itu adalah malaikat kegelapan.

Awalnya, mata hitam yang menatapnya dengan tajam dan dingin itu membuat Mia gemetar ketakutan dan berharap bumi menelannya detik itu juga.

Kemudian Alex Hirano tersenyum, dan jantung Mia yang malang melonjak dan berdebar begitu keras sampai Mia takut Alex bisa mendengarnya.

That was the blurp. Dari sinopsisnya, isi buku ini kurang jelas dan menggambarkan. Emang sih, buku bagus nggak boleh terlalu banyak sinopsisnya biar bisa bikin orang penasaran. Tapi berhubung ini review, gue bakal ngasih bocoran sedikit. Eh, enggak ding, banyak? Mungkin. Soalnya kalo udah ngomongin sesuatu yang bagus dan gue suka banget, gue bisa banyak omong dan kebablasan. Haha.

Cerita dimulai dari Ray, adik Alex Hirano yang datang menemui kakanya di apartemennya di New York. Hari itu ia memutuskan menemui kakanya karena sudah lama sejak kepulangannya ke New York, kakaknya tidak pernah memberi kabar. Ia khawatir sesuatu telah terjadi pada kakaknya yang mood-nya memang sulit ditebak. Oke, sampai sini kayaknya pembukaannya terlalu bertele-tele deh. Singkatnya, Ray mengajak Alex keluar makan siang bersama sekaligus menghirup udara segar . Kali saja udara diluar bisa membantu Alex mencari inspirasi untuk lagunya. Oh, did I mention you? Alex Hirano adalah seorang pianis terkenal yang akan mengadakan konser besar di Amerika Serikat setelah sebelumnya telah menyelesaikan konsernya di Eropa. Saat itu ia sedang menulis lagu dan ia butuh inspirasi. Maka dari itu ia uring-uringan karena belum dapat inspirasi. Keadaan itu bisa sangat membuat mood-nya jelek.

Ray sendiri adalah seorang b-boy terkenal. Ia baru saja memenangkan lomba b-boy bersama crew-nya, di… dimana ya? Lupa. Ya pokoknya di situlah.

Ray mengatakan pada Alex bahwa saat ini ia tengah mengajar di salah satu studio tari kecil di New York. Alex heran karena menurutnya Ray sama sekali tidak berbakat dalam mengajar tapi ia mendapatkan penjelasan yang masuk akal karena Ray mengaku mengajar disana karena permintaan seorang gadis –yang juga mengajar tari kontemporer di studio itu. Alex menyadari bahwa adiknya sedang jatuh cinta pada gadis itu. Gadis itu bernama Mia Clark.

Ya ampun, kenapa pembukaannya panjang banget sih?!  Oke, let’s skip this before I write the whole story. Singkatnya lagi, Ray mengajak Alex untuk mampir di studio tempat ia mengajar dan berniat memperkenalkannya pada gadis bernama Mia. Tapi siapa sangka, dari situlah hari sial Alex berawal. Saat menaiki tangga, tanpa sadar karena kejadiannya begitu cepat, sesuatu jatuh dari tangga dan menubruknya hingga membuat kepalanya terbentur dan tangan kirinya terkilir. Sesuatu atau yang lebih tepat seseorang yang jatuh itu adalah Mia Clark, gadis yang dikejar-kejar Ray. Setelah ke rumah sakit, dokter memvonis tangannya terkilir dan tidak dapat berfungsi dengan baik selama, mungkin, dua bulan kedepan. Tangannya harus dibebat dan digantung di depan dada. Alex merasa kacau. Hidupnya tidak akan sama lagi kalau tangannya patah. Dokter memang mengatakan tangannya hanya terkilir tapi tidak menutup kemungkinan menjadi lebih buruk lagi. Dan sialnya semua itu baru bisa dipastikan setelah dua bulan ke depan. Itu artinya ia tidak bisa main piano dan parahnya lagi konsernya beberapa minggu lagi terancam batal.

Mia Clark benar-benar takut dan merasa bersalah. Pasalnya semenjak mengetahui tangan Alex Hirano tidak bisa berfungsi secara normal, sejak saat itulah Alex menatapnya dengan tajam dan menakutkan. Mia bersumpah jika tatapan dapat membunuh, saat ini ia pasti sudah terbunuh. Ditambah lagi fakta bahwa Alex adalah pianis terkenal yang akan mengadakan konser sebentar lagi. Mia bertambah takut tapi Ray selalu meyakinkannya bahwa Alex tidak apa-apa. Ia tidak akan marah walaupun Mia tahu laki-laki itu pasti marah besar. Di perjalanan menuju apartemen Alex, Mia mendengar Alex sedang berbicara dengan manajernya dan mengatakan bahwa konser yang dijadwalkan harus di batalkan. Perasaan bersalah Mia semakin besar. Ia sempat menawarkan diri untuk membantu Alex tapi Alex tetap dingin.

Esoknya, Mia memberanikan diri menemui Alex di apartemennya. Niatnya hanya satu yaitu ingin membantu Alex. Menjadi tangan kiri Alex sampai tangannya sembuh total. Awalnya Alex tidak setuju karena ia telah menganggap gadis itu sebagai malaikat kegelapannya. Ia takut dengan keberadaan gadis itu di dekatnya, gadis itu bisa saja mematahkan tangannya yang lain kapan saja. Tapi akhirnya ia sadar ia benar-benar membutuhkan bantuan seseorang jadi ia menerima penawaran Mia. Mulai hari itu Mia resmi menjadi ‘pesuruh dan pengurus rumah’ Alex.

Kini selain mengajar di studio tari Mia juga disibukkan sebagai ‘pesuruh’ Alex. Ia harus datang setiap pagi untuk membuatkan kopi dan sarapan untuk Alex, juga membersihkan apartemennya. Awalnya Alex masih berhati-hati dan menganggap Mia adalah malaikat kegelapannya. Tapi makin hari ia semakin yakin ia tidak bisa hidup tanpa kopi buatan Mia. Tentu saja itu alasan yang benar. Tapi tidak cukup benar karena ia yakin ia tidak bisa sehari saja tanpa Mia didekatnya. Ia tahu ia telah jatuh cinta pada malaikat kegelapannya.

Sampai sini menurut kalian konflik apa yang timbul setelahnya? Cinta segitiga antara Mia, Alex, dan Ray? Persaingan antar saudara? Sebelum ngasih jawaban gue mau cerita sedikit. Sebelum baca gue udah pernah baca beberapa review. Walaupun kurang jelas, gue dapet informasi kalau buku ini sad ending. Kecewa nggak? Hehe, jangan kecewa karena walaupun buku ini sad ending tapi dijamin bagus! Nah, mereka kebanyakan menceritakan konfliknya tentang cinta segitiga ini. Di awal gue pikir pasti konfliknya cinta segitiga. Sad ending-nya mungkin karena si tokoh utama yang digadang-gadang bakal live happily ever after malah diluar ekspektasi. Mungkin mereka nggak bakal bersatu. Ya, awalnya gue pikir juga gitu. Tapi setelah baca ternyata konfliknya lebih dari itu. Jadi, jawaban untuk pertanyaan diatas adalah bukan. Konflik buku ini bukan sekedar cinta segitiga. Oke, salah satunya sih iya. Tapi nggak mendominasi. Mungkin cuma sekitar 40%. Yaah, kayaknya segitu. Jadi konflik sebenarnya adalah bahwa Mia punya penyakit jantung. Nah, kalian pasti udah bisa nebak deh ending-nya gimana.

Yup, di awal-awal cerita emang banyak dikasih umpan tentang penyakit Mia ini. Gue bahkan bisa nebak di awal-awal kalau penyakitnya penyakit jantung karena sering disinggung tentang ‘jantung Mia yang malang’. Dan akhirnya dipertengahan dibongkar juga fakta ini. Seperti biasa, Ilana Tan banyak memberi hints kecil. Buat yang peka pasti bisa langsung ngerti kearah mana ceritanya akan mengalir. Sayangnya buat yang merhatiin detilnya banget, hint ini terlalu jelas. Jadi ceritanya ketebak sebelum dibongkar secara gamblang sama si penulis. Apapun itu gue acungi jempol untuk Mbak Ilana.

Mia Clark. Seorang gadis periang. Menyenangkan yang pasti. Ada lusinan orang seperti Ray yang tergila-gila dengan Mia. Itu berarti Mia cewek yang bisa dikategorikan spesial di mata laki-laki. Buktinya manajer Alex, Karl, sering menggoda Mia. Selain itu diceritakan beberapa rekan Mia di studio tari juga memiliki deep crush dengannya. Tapi sayangnya Mia selalu memperlakukan mereka dengan sama. Caranya bicara, caranya tersenyum. Tidak ada hal khusus yang bisa membedakan perlakuan Mia terhadap seseorang. Mia tidak pernah jatuh cinta. Tapi jantung Mia selalu berdetak dua kali lebih cepat setiap kali Alex menyentuhnya. Ia berusaha sekeras mungkin menutupi perasaannya pada Alex karena semakin lama semkain banyak ‘seandainya’ yang bisa dibayangkan Mia dan ia tidak mau banyak berharap. She knows exactly her destiny.

Disini Mia dikatakan sebagai anak adopsi keluarga Clark. Itu kenapa wajahnya lebih mirip orang Asia ketimbang Amerika. Awalnya, gue berharap Mia peranakan Indonesia, lagi. Seperti karakter yang sudah-sudah tapi sampai akhir cerita tidak ada kepastian siapa orang tua kandung Mia sebenarnya. Ditambah lagi Alex pernah bilang kalau Mia mirip orang Jepang. Mungkin Mia memang orang Jepang. Sayang banget ternyata bukan Indonesia.

Giliran Alex Hirano. Seorang Pianis terkenal. Cukup terkenal kalau kamu pecinta musik instrumental, mungkin. Karakternya kaku, pendiam, tidak bersahabat, dan pintar menyembunyikan perasaan. I’m telling you, jenis cowok kayak gini adalah karakter yang cowok favorit gue. Makanya dari awal gue yakin gue akan jatuh cinta sama karakter yang satu ini. Iya, gue tau. Gue emang gampang banget jatuh cinta sama karakter fiksi. Hampir semua karakter cowok di buku Ilana Tan pernah bikin gue jatuh cinta. Terutama Alex Hirano ini. Bisa ditebak dari nama belakangnya, Alex Hirano berperankan Jepang. Nah, ini lagi yang bikin penasaran. Kenapa selalu ada unsur Jepang disetiap buku Ilana? Gue makin yakin kalau Ilana ini peranakan Jepang. Sayangnya Indonesia nggak disebut-sebut seperti di buku-buku sebelumnya.

Oh ya, kenapa ya tiap karakter jenis ini selalu punya sisi perhatian? Dibalik hatinya yang dingin, Alex sangat perhatian pada Mia. Pada kondisi kesehatannya. Ya ampun, ini yang bikin melting.

Di buku ini banyak percakapan romantis yang menggelitik perut pembaca. Tapi cara penyampaiannya berbeda. Lebih banyak cara penyampaian yang tidak langsung untuk menggambarkan sisi romantis Alex. Begitu juga dengan sikap Mia yang selalu menanggapi setiap perlakuan laki-laki dengan sama. Walaupun perasaannya berbeda kepada Alex, tapi cara dia tersenyum menanggapi tetap saja sama.

Apalagi ya yang belum dibocorin? Haha, ini  bukan bocor lagi tapi rembes namanya. This book is very recommended. Gue nggak tau tanggapan orang lain tapi gue bener-bener jatuh cinta sama buku ini. Bukan, bukan sama buku ini tapi mungkin lebih ke penulisnya. Mbak Ilana ini udah bikin gue jatuh cinta dari awal bukunya, 4 musim. Nah, gue ini tipe orang yang kalo udah suka sama seseorang, semua tentang orang itu jadi bagus dimata gue. Misalnya, gue suka Justin Bieber. Buat gue semua lagu dia bagus. Atau penulis lain, Rick Riordan misalnya. Karena gue jatuh cinta sama Percy Jackson, maka otomatis gue jatuh cinta sama semua karyanya. Gitu juga sama Ilana Tan. Buat gue apapun kekurangannya, buku ini tetep BAGUS di mata gue. Oya, ngomong-ngomong, gue suka cara Ilana menyampaikan buku ini dengan bahasa novel terjemahan. Semua novelnya berbasis di negeri orang, jadi nggak heran cara penyampaiannya juga terkesan seperti novel terjemahan. Entah kenapa gue lebih suka baca novel jenis begini. Apalagi kalau latarnya Negara-negara besar dunia. Seperti sekarang, New York. Bukannya nggak cinta negeri sendiri tapi, apa ya… ada kesan ‘menyenangkan’ bisa menjelajahi Negara orang dalam pikiran dan imajinasi.

Gue juga suka profesi karakter-karakter disini. Mereka semua ‘nyeni’. Mia Clark adalah salah seorang penari dari lima penari kontemporer terbaik dunia. Sedangkan Alex Hirano adalah seorang pianis. Mereka sama-sama lulusan Julliard. Julliard itu kampus yang terkenal banyak melahirkan musisi-musisi dan penari berbakat. Gue suka membaca pekerjaan mereka. Rasanya tiap Mia menari, gue hampir bisa membayangkan tarian sempurnanya Mia. Begitu juga kalau Alex sedang memainkan lagu dengan piano-nya. Pasti indah banget. Ngomong-ngomong Alex menjadikan Mia sebagai inspirasinya dalam menulis sebuah lagu. Lagu itu ia dedikasikan untuk Mia. Lagu yang berjudul Sunshine Becomes You. Judul yang sama dengan bukunya. Awalnya judulnya Thinking of Clark, tapi Alex menggantinya karena nama Clark terdengar seperti nama laki-laki. Hahaha…

Dan, asal kalian tahu. Gue bukan penyuka novel sad ending. Kalau bisa nggak baca ya nggak gue baca deh. Tapi berhubung penulisnya Ilana Tan, gue mengesampingkan segala resiko buat baca buku ini. Lebay -____-

Yang pasti sedia tisyu. Di akhir-akhir bab buku ini bakal sangat menguras air mata. Gue nggak berenti nangis abis baca buku itu. The fact, I still sobbed when I turned on the computer to write this. Jadi, kalau kalian mau baca jangan lupa siapin tisyu. I think it’s enough. I hope you excited to read this book as I was. If you are, I just wanna say; Happy reading! Cheers.

“Walaupun tidak ada hal lain di dunia ini yang bisa kau percayai,

 percayalah bahwa aku mencintaimu. Sepenuh hatiku.”

CARVING FOR VALENTINE

I WANT A GUY FOR EVERY VALENTINE AND MY ENTIRE LIFE AS

CUTE AND CHARM AS MARIO MAURER

ROMANTIC, HOT, AND HAS GOLDEN VOICE AS JUSTIN BIEBER

COOL AND GENTLE AS MATAHARI SENJA

BRAVE AND HAS GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR AS PERCY JACKSON

I DON’T CARE IF I HAD TO WAIT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I WILL. I’LL TAKE THE CHANCE NO MATTER WHAT TO GET THAT HOTTIES. OMG WHEREVER YOU ARE COME TO MAMA QUICKLY!

SERIOUSLY I DO

SORRY FOR THE CAPS, KBYE

The Most Love Story I Like

Tadatadaaaa… long time no post and today I’m ready for something new!

Today, Monday 13^th February. Nothing special. No campus, no hang out and others reason. My grandma has just left for going back hometown. Oh, I will miss her so. I wish I could go hometown too. But now I’m not going to galau, shower or whatever is it. Guess what, tomorrow will be Valentine’s Day because tomorrow is 14^th February OMG!!! No, I’m not really freaking out when I’m typing this but everbody’s excited for that day and I tried too.

As always, I AM NOT GOING TO CELEBRATE IT!! Yes, because… you know. Ugh (coughing) I’m SINGLE. It’s okay, what’s problem with it? It’s not necessary at all as you could celebrate valentine with your friends and family (fake). I AM SINGLE FOR FUCKING EONS! Single is what I’ve chosen HAHA -_____-

This not the right time to talk about ‘why am I always single for eighteen years old’. I’m telling you I’m not gonna talk about it. Yes, okay, enough. This valentine, I’m not gonna ask God for a boyfriend or anything else. Actually, there’s boyfriend or not I and family are never celebrate valentine but the euphoria of it can’t be deny. Everyone’s trying to makes and gives chocolate to someone special. Buys flowers and making a romantic dinner at night. That’s simply cute for me though I don’t need it all, seriously. For me, valentine’s day could give you a day to treat your special person special. It’s not just a person but everybody’s you love. Family, friends, your soulmate. That’s something you could give if there’s no time in others day.

But, still I’m not gonna talk about it because nobody treats me special in valentine. What I’m writing is LOVE. Again, it’s not about love but a movie that very romantic. And I’m dying wanted the actor to be my valentine someday! The movie called A Crazy Little Thing Called Love. A television program has just played it minutes before I create this post. It remind me that I was planning to create a post about this movie. The timing is good A Thailand film was directed by Puttipong Pormsaka Na-Sakonnakorn Wasin Pokpong. That’s very hard to say the name geeezzz -___-. The film was released in 2010 and starring by Mario Maurer, Pimchanok Luevisadpaibul, Sudarat Budtporm, Peerawat Herapath, Pijitra Siriwerapan, Acharanat Ariyaritwikol. Bet you can’t say the names without twirl your tounge Muahahaa. The genre is comedy romantic so you’ll laugh in every scene. This is the best romantic movie I’ve ever seen. Best reason is because the guy is very handsome, cute, charming and et cetera. Don’t judge before seen it. Here’s the synopsis.

Nam lives with her sister and mother. She is Shone's junior and secretly loves him. Nam and her friends help her confess her love with the help of the book '9 recipes of love'. Meanwhile teacher Inn and teacher Orn are constantly competing with each other for the sport teacher. Nam plays snow white in the school drama, Snow white. Shone's childhood friend Top joins the school. He has an instant liking for her.Some days later Top confesses his love to Nam. She is shocked and does not answer. Next morning Top asks her to go to the football match to see Shone Play. She agrees to that idea. On an outing Shone finally confesses indirectly that he loves her, but is interrupted by Top. At the birthday night party of Ake, Top and Shone share their story and say that they promise never to fall in love with the same girl. During a dance Top kisses Nam's cheek. That night Nam breaks up with him. Three years has passed by since the beginning of her story. Nam secures the first position in her exam. She would leave for USA to be with her dad. On the closing of the school year, she finally confesses to Shone. But is heart broken when she sees that Pin and Shone are together. That night Shone leaves his diary in front of her house. That diary contained all of Nam's photos. He always loved her but their time never matched. Shone leaves for Bangkok.

Nine years later, Nam is a successful costume designer and Shone has changed his profession to be a pro-photographer. In a reality show Nam and Shone are reunited.

I copied it from Wikipedia because I’m not good at telling story. You just HAVE TO WATCH IT. And just try not to fall in love with Mario a.k.a Shone. He’s so OMGOMGOMG. Besides, the movie was incredible. They make it simple with not much drama but the love message could send perfectly to the audience. For me, it’s a different movie because it’s not just about fall in love but friendship too. Touching and inspiring. Anyway, this film is based from true story. Imagine how it could be, fell in love with one boy and never had a chance with him but after years met as a soulmate. Totally awesome, romantic and oh so-sweet. I don’t wanna fall for anyone else but you, Mario.

Shone (Mario), a heartthrob and popular student in school. Handsome, cute and a football player. He also likes photography so I was enchanted with him and his camera awww! He’s friendly, funny (more like innocent) and cheerful although he’s a little bad guy as a usual boy student. He got my heart for the first time. His acting is good and naturally teenager eventhough he was about twenty more. (P.S: we share a same birthday. I think we’re soulmate :D) Seriously, it’s not about how cute he is but he’s just a high school student.  When the the movie was played on the cinemas I saw his pics a lot on tumblr and I reblogging them so much. I still remember it was 2010 and he was visiting Indonesia. I’m googling about him like crazy. Okay, HIM is Mario :p

Nam (Pimchanok Luevisadpaibul), an ugly girl, dark skin, short hair, wearing glasses and bracelet. She’s not smart but she good at English. She likes her senior, Shone from the first time they met. It grew faster as they were in a same school. Shone has just moved from his old school and became her senior. I like her friendship with her friends. It’s like a never ending friendship although in the mid they were in a problem that their friendship is almost end. Nam is a unique character. I love her because she was a truly unperfect character. At the first she appeared as an ugly girl while dumb too. Perfectly unperfect! That’s a normal character, she neither beautiful nor smart. Eventhough at last she turned into beautiful but she still clumsy and dumb as always. That’s typical laughing scenes I like.

There’s a teacher. I don’t know what teacher she was because she taught multiple lessons like English, drama an etc. she’s very funny. You can leave without laughing at her scenes. All of her scenes! She’s so funny, dumb, but fierce too. I like when she started to say something in English. The accent was strange but funny. She is teacher of Nam’s class and had a bad crush with a physical exercises teacher. At last, when he moved to Bangkok to lead the football team, she broken heart but it healed as fast as the new teacher came. And finally, I guess they live happily ever after.

Mario and Baifern ;)

There are some gif picts from the movie

in the Snow White drama

crying after rejected by Shone

plunged in swimming fool after rejected. sad but funny scene :')

sneak peek for Shone in his class

met for the first time

 pretending to be okay

 got a white rose for valentine

telling story abou the squids. cute scene!

 meet again in a talk show after 9 years :'(

broke heart to see his friend kiss her

There's a cute scene when Shone told story about squids. That's why he didn't eat squids. At the last Nam told him that was cute. He ask what's cute, the story or the teller and she told the teller but she doubt as realize that she has just told him wrong so she said again the story. That's cuuutteee!

Acually there are lot more but the connection is fucking gay so I think it's enough. Thanks for reading. Oh, and I recommended this as a MUST WATCH movie. Better watch it tomorrow because it's valentine ;)

Lotta love from me and, Happy Watching

Dreams=Me

Kalau ditanya mimpi, gue akan jawab dengan cepat mimpi gue adalah keliling dunia. Berasal dari mana mimpi gue ini, entahlah. Yang jelas sampe saat ini mimpi gue masih sama, keliling dunia. Ngomong-ngomong tentang mimpi entah kenapa mimpi selalu jadi hal paling menarik buat gue. Setiap orang pasti punya mimpi. At least, pernah bermimpi. Nggak peduli tua atau muda, kecil atau besar, kaya atau miskin. Semua PASTI punya. Yang membedakan cuma apakah kita tipe orang yang bermimpi lantas mengejarnya atau bermimpi tapi tidak berusaha mewujudkannya. Gue sendiri nggak tau apa yang gue lakuin saat ini termasuk dalam tahap ‘mengejar’ mimpi atau enggak.

Waktu kecil orang dewasa paling hobi nanya cita-cita. Dan pada dasarnya anak kecil suka ngejawab kalo nggak jadi dokter, pilot, polisi, atau pramugari. Gue sendiri inget waktu kecil pengen jadi pramugari tapi berhubung kaki gue nggak mulus karena sering digigitin nyamuk orang tua gue sering bilang kalo gue nggak akan bisa jadi pramugari. Gue mundur teratur. Memang, orang tu macam apa ini? HAHA. Tapi pramugari bukan mimpi gue yang sebenernya. Setiap ditanya cita-cita gue apa, gue lebih suka menjawab  dengan, “jadi bidan.” Haha, ini emang kocak abis. Entah dapet ide darimana tapi gue masih ingat jelas kalo gue pengen jadi bidan yang bisa nolong orang melahirkan. Anehnya, sampe sekarang aja gue takut liat darah diri sendiri pas datang bulan, ups. Gue rela nggak kencing seharian kalo lagi dapet, gimana bisa gue jadi bidan. Yang ada gue sempoyongan duluan liat darah segitu banyak. Mungkin karena gue suka anak kecil. Alasan yang ini juga agak nggak masuk akal berhubung waktu ditanya gue juga masih kecil. Heran deh.

Kita tinggalkan masa lalu. Orang sukses selalu melihat kedepan. Masa lalu itu cuma perlu dilihat sesekali sebagai pelajaran. HAHA bahasa gue! Sebagai pemimpi gue nggak cukup punya satu mimpi. Gue punya BANYAK mimpi terutama nikah sama Justin, kalo itu bisa disebut mimpi bukan ngekhayal. But, let’s just talk about dream. Kadang mimpi itu dikaitkan dengan bakat. Oke, mimpi yang gue maksud sekarang bukan mimpi kembang tidur tapi lebih ke cita-cita. Di buku Refrain yang baru aja gue baca, si tokoh bilang mimpi itu adalah, “Obsesi. Sesuatu yang menjadi penuntun hidup.” Benar. Dan apakah mimpi gue pengen keliling dunia itu termasuk penuntun hidup? Entahlah, yang jelas gue udah terobsesi dengan hal itu. Bagi gue apapun yang gue lakuin dan kerjain pada akhirnya suatu saat harus mengarah kesana, keliling dunia. Kalau cita-cita adalah tujuan hidup itu berarti kita harus punya bakat kesana. Masalahnya gue nggak tau punya bakat apa yang bisa ngebawa gue keliling dunia. Yang jelas kalo mau keliling dunia pasti harus punya banyak duit. HAHA

Gimana kalo keliling dunia gratis? Gue sempet memikirkan beberapa pekerjaan yang bisa membawa gue keliling dunia gratis misalnya, pramugari. Balik lagi ke pramugari, kayaknya tinggi badan gue kurang dua senti biar diterima jadi pramugari jadinya pekerjaan ini gue coret dari wishlist. Selain itu gue memutuskan untuk jadi tour guide soalnya bokap gue mantan tour guide yang sekarang jadi wiraswasta Tour&Travel. Dulunya sih beliau lebih sering ngeberangkatin jemaah ke tanah suci sekaligus sebagai guide-nya. Pekerjaan ini juga yang sering membawa beliau jalan-jalan gratis ke luar negeri walaupun cuma di Asia aja. Tapi kan yaa, lumayan juga daripada enggak sama sekali.  Sebagai seorang tour guide, kelemahan bokap gue cuma satu. Nggak fasih dalam bahasa Inggris. Itu makanya nggak pernah diajakin ke Negara barat. Hehee. Itu kenapa bokap gue ngeharusin gue bisa bahasa Inggris. Pada akhirnya komunikasi kan paling penting. Gue bangga sebagai mahasiswi komunikasi HAHA. Dulu gue sempet ngutarain keinginan gue buat jadi tour guide dan hasilnya diledek habis-habisan sama kakak dan bokap gue. Gue seorang yang nggak bisa ngomong ini pengen jadi tour guide? Very funny. Begitulah kira-kira tanggapan mereka. Gue jelas patah semangat. Lagi-lagi orang dalem sendiri yang mendorong gue untuk mundur.

Gue akui, dulu gue emang nggak pandai bergaul. Gue lahir sebagai anak yang nomaden. Tempat tinggalnya pindah-pindah dan nggak menetap. Gue gede dijalan antara pulau Jawa dan Kalimantan. Cerita sedikit, gue lahir di Banjarmasin, Kalimantan Selatan. Empat puluh hari setelah kelahiran gue, gue sekeluarga pindah ke Jakarta dan menetap disana. Enam tahun kemudian nyokap gue sakit parah setelah ngelahirin adek gue dan meninggal. Gue dan kakak gue jadi anak ‘Galau’ antara ikut nenek di Banjarmasin atau bokap yang notabene punya kerjaan di Jakarta. Setelah para orang dewasa memutuskan. Akhirnya gue dan kakak gue diungsikan di rumah nenek. Waktu itu gue kelas dua SD dan kakak gue kelas empat. Kepindahan kami berdua nggak otomatis selamanya. Tiap liburan bokap sering jemput kami pulang ke Jakarta. Oke, sampe sini gue bingung sebenernya ‘rumah’ asli kami tu dimana! yang jelas selama beberapa tahun kemudian gue dan kakak gue bolak-balik Jakarta-Banjarmasin. Kita jadi sering bolos sekolah karena ‘meliburkan diri’. yang sebenernya liburan cuma dua minggu malah jadi dua bulan. Untungnya sebagai anak SD yang benci sekolah, bokap gue nggak ambil pusing sama hal itu. Prinsip bokap gue sekolah nomer dua. Nggak perlu nilai bagus yang penting naik kelas. HAHA bokap gue emang keren!

Sampe di liburan kenaikan kelas empat bokap gue mutusin buat mindahin sekolah kakak gue ke Jakarta. Itu pertama kalinya gue pisah sama kakak gue. Gue tetap tinggal di Banjarmasin nemenin adik bungsu gue. Gue jadi inget di awal-awal pisah gue sering nangis kejer kangen sama dia dan itu sangat aneh mengingat kalo ketemu hobi kita berdua juga berantem. Tapi perpisahan itu cuma setengah tahun. Pertengahan semester kelas empat gue ikutan pindah ke Jakarta. Nggak dimana-mana sekolah kita tetep aja keteteran. Selama di Jakarta gue sama kakak gue lebih sering ikut bokap berkelana mencari cinta. HAHA. Nggak taulah dulu itu ngapain. Antara kerja, berguru, sama mencari cinta, yang jelas gue sama kakak gue ngikut aja. Kita sering diajak jalan-jalan sampe ke pelosok-pelosok pulau Jawa Barat. Dan kalo inget tahun-tahun itu gue rasa itu tahun-tahun paling berkesan dihidup gue. Kadang gue masih suka nostalgia sama kakak gue inget waktu lagi seru-serunya berpetualang bareng bokap gue yang DUREN, duda keren HAHA. Pada akhirnya gue dan kakak gue pindah lagi ke Banjarmasin pas gue kelas enam SD tapi kebiasaan meliburkan diri masih berlangsung. Gue yang hampir lulus SD malah meliburkan diri berbulan-bulan pas pertengahan semester. Akhirnya karena gue bersikeras nggak mau pulang dan pihak sekolah harus ngirim data-data murid buat ikut UN akhirnya gue terpaksa di D.O. Nggak yang beneran di D.O sih tapi yaa begitulah. Gue di D.O. kalo inget kejadian itu kasian juga sih sama om dan nenek gue yang akhirnya mau nggak mau harus nyariin sekolah baru buat gue ikut UN dan lulus tepat waktu. Dan Alhamdulillah gue lulus walaupun nggak tau lah nilai gue jelek banget kayaknya. Gue nggak begitu meratiin ijazah. Baru setelah lulus SD dan bokap gue nikah lagi sama orang Sunda, akhirnya gue dan keluarga pindah buat ‘ngadem’ di Bogor sampe sekarang.

Anyway, back to the topic. Karena gue sering pindah-pindah sekolah sampe SMP akhirnya gue nggak punya banyak temen. Gue inget banget pas gue pindah sekolah di pertengahan semester kelas dua SMP gue hampir nggak punya temen selama setengah tahun. Bayangin, segitu pendiemnya gue dan nggak pinter bersosialisasi. Buat orang yang kenal gue pas SMA pasti bilang “boong banget, tuh. Risma kan bawel.” Haha, iya banget. Gue berusaha memperbaiki diri dari SMA jadi orang yang lebih terbuka terhadap diri sendiri. Karena aslinya gue bawel jadi ya gue bawel. Enggak ding, aslinya gue nggak bawel. Gue bawel waktu itu karena gue pengen diterima di lingkungan gue. Iya, awalnya gue berpura-pura tapi buat gue ini pura-pura yang bagus kok. Gue jadi lebih terbuka dengan lingkungan sekitar. Dunia ini emang nggak cukup buat jadi diri lo sendiri. Kadang kita emang perlu berpura-pura. Gue emang tertutup dari sononya dibandingkan kakak gue yang bawel. Sifat kita emang agak bertolak belakang. Itu kenapa hobinya dia, nyanyi, dikasih akses sama bokap karenda dia show off bakatnya. Sedangkan gue, mungkin bokap gue nggak tau hobi gue apa sampe diri gue sendiri aja nggak tau bakat dan hobi gue itu apa. Gue diem bukan berarti gue nggak bisa apa-apa.

Di awal tadi gue sempet bilang gue punya BANYAK mimpi. Hobi gue dari dulu tu copycats kakak gue. Mungkin karena gue nggak punya panutan lain selain dia. Bahkan baju gue sehari-hari harus dipilihin sama dia. Gue mulai gerah dan pengen jadi diri sendiri sejak SMP mungkin, lupa tepatnya yang pasti gue sadar ternyata gue nggak sama sama kakak gue. Tapi pada masa itu, ngeliat kakak gue yang latihan nyanyi tiap hari bikin gue jadi hobi nyanyi juga. Awalnya gue kira gue cuma ikut-ikutan karena diantara gue dan kakak gue tu kayak ada perjanjian tak tertulis kalo kita tu nggak boleh sama. Misalnya kalau lagi main Power Ranger, kalo dia milih jadi Power Ranger Pink gue nggak boleh suka sama Ranger Pink. Itu berati pilihan gue Ranger Kuning yang jenis kelaminnya sama-sama cewek. Yaa, gitu-gitu aja terus. Mungkin karena dia yang lebih tua dan gue biasa ngikut aja jadi dia emang lebih sering milih duluan. Nah, pikiran gue waktu itu nggak beda jauh. Kalo kakak gue hobi nyanyi itu berati gue nggak boleh hobi nyanyi juga. Kesimpulan ini gue tarik sendiri, itu berarti gue harus nentuin hobi yang lain. Beberapa kali gue coba nyari hobi gue sendiri. Gue coba ngegambar. Gue emang hobi ngegambar dan gue rasa gue jago banget. Jago banget dalam hal plagiat orang lain. Copycats gue masih suka kebawa-bawa jadinya tiap ada gambaran bagus suka gue tiruin. Hasilnya sama persis. Gue emang cukup detil buat ngikutin orang lain. Dan kayaknya masih kebawa sampe sekarang. Contohnya kalo ada penyanyi yang suaranya bagus dan lagunya enak. Gue suka nyanyiin lagunya dengan teknik vocal, cengkok, vibra, tinggi atau rendah yang sama persis sama penyanyi aslinya. Nggak peduli cewek atau cowok.  Pokoknya kalo nggak sama persis gue nggak akan berenti usaha buat nyamain kebagusan penyanyi itu. Walaupun yang pasti nggak akan sebagus itu tapi kalo gue rasa gue udah mencapai tahap maksimal itu berarti gue berhasil. HAHA. Yang jelas kalo gue ikut Indonesian Idol gue bakal diprotes keras karena nggak jago imrovisasi. Yaa, walhasil gue nggak bisa ngegambar kalo nggak ada contekannya. Ditambah lagi waktu gambaran-gambaran itu gue pajang di kamar dan dicopotin sama bokap. Rasanya ancur banget. Gue berasa bokap gue emang nggak ‘ngeliat’ bakat gue itu apa. Sejak saat itu gue berenti ngegambar walaupun plagiat.

Gue beralih. Sebagai orang yang cukup tertutup gue jadi lebih suka nulis ketimbang ngomong. Berhubung gue juga hobi baca novel jadi gue sering bikin cerpen atau novel amatiran. Dan sampe sekarang gue tetep suka nulis. Begitu juga nyanyi, gue sadar gue suka musik sekalipun gue nggak bisa main musik. Tapi rasanya sehari aja nggak denger musik itu kayak setahun tanpa hujan katanya Selena Gomez. Hehe. Lebih dari musik, gue suka nyanyi. Berawal dari keinginan gue ngikutin kakak gue sampe gue suka benerean. Entah waktu itu gue baru suka nyanyi karena kakak gue atau jauh sebelum itu gue emang udah suka. Karena dari kecil kita berdua emang lebih sering dicekokin sama lagu-lagu anak dan buku/majalah anak. Jadinya sampe sekarang gue suka musik, nyanyi , nulis dan baca. Walaupun buku pelajaran nggak termasuk dalam daftar buku bacaan gue HAHA. Iya, sebagai remaja gue lebih suka diajak ke Gramedia ketimbang shopping di mall. Bagi gue Gramedia itu surga dunia. Menyenangkan! Gue juga suka bau buku baru dicetak gitu. Baunya menyenangkan. Sesuatu deh pokoknya.

Balik lagi ke mimpi, jadi mimpi gue apa? Bakat gue apa? Gue sendiri jujur sejujur jujurnya masih bingung. Suatu saat gue pengen jadi penulis tapi gue belum pernah sekalipun nyoba kirim naskah ke penerbit. Ada aja terus halangannya. Mau jadi penyanyi, entah kenapa gue masih nggak pede untuk say it out loud. Yang pernah denger gue nyanyi baru satu atau dua orang aja. Tapi yang jelas dari semua hal itu gue pengen jadi sorotan. A center of attention. Pede banget gue ngomong gini. Gue emang orang yang agak tertutup dan nggak pedean tapi dari dalam hati gue yang paling dalam, eaa. Walaupun seribu kali gue ngehindar, hati gue selalu bilang kalo gue harus ‘dipandang’ sama orang. Kalo gue jadi penulis gue pengen banyak orang yang baca buku gue. Pengen liat buku gue dipajang di rak toko buku terkenal di Indonesia atau bahkan dunia. Atau kalo jadi penyanyi gue pengen suara gue bisa di dengar ratusan, ribuan atau lebih banyak orang lagi dari itu. Gue pengen nunjukin ke dunia kalo ini loh GUE. Gue tu seseorang yang punya bakat. Gue pendiem bukan berarti gue nggak bisa apa-apa. Gue pengen jadi SESUATU walaupun sesuatunya beda sama Syahrini.

Apapun itu, final. Gue fix pengen keliling dunia. Nggak ada yang bisa ngalahin mimpi gue yang satu itu. Nggak ngerti dari kapan yang jelas seinget gue, gue mulai pinter bahasa Inggris dari SMP. Nilai gue bagus-bagus dan memotivasi gue untuk berlaku sesuatu dengan bahasa itu. Barangkali kalo tekun gue bisa jadi sesuatu dengan ngegunain bahasa Inggris. Bahasa Inggris jadi mapel favorit gue. Dan pada saat itu gue memutuskan gue harus study ke luar negeri suatu saat. Gue coba bilang ke bokap. Waktu itu kelas 3 SMP. Gue bilang kalo kuliah nanti gue pengen ke Singapore. Bokap gue ternyata amat sangat setuju padahal bokap kan protektif banget. Gue main ke rumah tetangga aja suka nggak boleh. Tapi beliau malah bilang kalo bisa lebih jauh dari Singapore. Australia mungkin, atau Amerika sekalian. Kalo gue emang siap, why not? Apalagi kalo bokap gue mampu. Gue mencamkan itu dalam hati. Setiap kali denger kata ‘kuliah’ gue selalu ngeyakinin hati gue kalo ntar gue akan berangkat ke luar negeri saat gue kuliah nanti. Sampe SMA ternyata keadaan berkehendak lain. Kondisi ekonomi keluarga mulai menurun. Gue nggak bisa maksa bokap karena sekarang ada dua orang yang kuliah. Gue dan kakak gue. Gue nggak yakin bakal sanggup berangkat dengan biaya sendiri kecuali beasiswa. Itu juga nambah keraguan gue. Apa gue emang udah siap? Apa gue mampu hidup jauh dari keluarga? Gue mulai down dan menyerah. Mungkin emang belum jalannya. Tapi kenyataan yang lebih nyakitin gue adalah pada akhirnya gue harus masuk universitas yang sama dengan kakak gue, yang jauh-jauh hari udah gue wanti-wanti bakal jadi pilihan terakhir gue. Bokap gue bersikeras. Aturan tetep aturan. Gue nggak boleh jauh-jauh dari rumah. Gue harus tetep pulang sebelum jam 5. Paling banter setengah jam sebelum maghrib. Bokap gue bilang kalau mau kuliah yang jauh ya jauh sekalian. Diluar negeri jangan tanggung-tanggung biar nggak jadi pikiran keluarga. Gue nyerah. Gue ikutin kemauan orang tua gue yang notabene perantara antara gue dan Tuhan.

Masalahnya gue nggak tau apa mimpi gue bakal terwujud di tempat yang  jelas-jelas gue tolak mentah-mentah. Setau gue saat kita ngerasa nggak ngelakuin sepenuh hati ya kita akan mentok karena nggak ada kemauan. Tapi dari situlah gue belajar. Kalo gue nggak move on dan terus uring-uringan sama hidup gue kapan gue bisa maju. Gue mau belajar mensyukuri dimanapun keberadaan gue sekarang. Universitas apapun nggak akan menentukan gimana kehidupan gue kelak. Rejeki bisa datang dari mana aja. Mimpi bisa terwujud di mana aja. Sama sekali nggak pengaruh dimana kita tinggal, sekolah atau kuliah. Yang jelas kalau Tuhan berkehendak ya Kun Fayakun. Itu mutlak dan pasti karena itu janji Tuhan. Dalam menjawab pertanyaan hambanya, Tuhan cuma punya tiga jawaban. Iya, akan dikabulkan. Tunggu, jika waktunya tiba. Atau Tidak, karena ada hal yang lebih baik dari itu yang sudah disiapkan oleh-Nya. Dan gue percaya itu. Apa sih yang nggak bisa di dunia ini kalo kita minta langsung ke yang Maha Memiliki. Wong, segampang ngebalikin telapak tangan kok. Tentu dibarengi dengan usaha juga. Nah, gue sendiri nggak tau apa gue udah atau sedang mencapai titik usaha itu apa belum. Entahlah, yang jelas apa yang gue lakuin sekarang gue berharap ada pengaruhnya ke mimpi-mimpi gue entar. Inget, semua nggak ada yang sia-sia. Sekecil apapun perbuatan kita pasti akan menuai balasannya. Entah itu baik atau buruk. Yang jelas kalo buat gue hal pertama yang HARUS dilakukan itu BELIEVE. Pernah baca buku The Secret? Sama, gue juga nggak pernah. HAHA. Tapi buku ini fenomenal banget. Bokap gue bilang buku ini mengajarkan tentang kekuatan percaya. Kita cuma harus percaya di dunia ini dan semua yang kita percaya akan kejadian. Intinya sih begitu. Tapi bokap gue bilang jangan baca buku ini kalo ilmu dan iman agamanya belum kuat. Bisa-bisa jatohnya musyrik karena mungkin di buku ini lebih menjurus ke atheis. I dunno. Yang jelas konsep ini sama dengan yang diajarkan dalam islam. Bedanya jangan percaya sama dunia yang bisa ngabulin itu semua tapi ALLAH, pemilik seluruh alam jagad raya. Dan gue rasa gue yakin akan hal itu. Keinginan gue udah tinggi banget jadi apapun yang orang bilang gue tetep mikir kalo suatu saat mimpi gue bakal jadi kenyataan. Padahal nggak jarang juga gue mikir “Apa bisa ya? Kalo bisa gimana caranya?” dan saat itu gue down tapi tetep aja hati kecil gue bilang gimanapun itu yang jelas BISA. Misalnya, setiap gue liat kota New York, L.A, London, Paris, atau Tokyo di tivi, hati kecil gue, tanpa otak ngasih komando, langsung mikir suatu saat gue bakal kesana. Nggak tau gimana caranya. Mungkin itu efek percaya. Beda sama otak bilang percaya tapi hati kecil enggak. Yang harus percaya itu HATI bukan PIKIRAN.

Tuhan itu Maha Kaya, Maha Memberi, Maha Mendengar, Maha Melihat, Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang. Kalo udah begini masa sih nggak bisa ngasih secuil kebaikan itu sama kita, para hamba-Nya. Mau keliling dunia? Gampang. Seluruh dunia ini kan ciptaan-Nya. Tinggal DIA yang menentukan dan menggerakan kaki kita kemana kita akan melangkah. Yang penting itu tadi, Percaya, berdoa, dan usaha. Manusia berencana Tuhan juga yang berkehendak. Tadi malem bokap gue bilang jangan pernah membatasi gerak-gerik diri kita sendiri. Misal, kita merencanakan besok harus dapet duit seratus ribu. Itu berarti kita menutup kesempatan dapat duit yang lebih banyak dari itu. Yang tadinya Tuhan mau ngasih berkali lipat dari seratus ribu karena kita membatasi diri sendiri ya jadinya cuma dapet segitu. Jangan berencana. Itu hal yang gue dapet karena gue hobi banget ngerencanain sesuatu. Kalo mau beli sesuatu, target gue harus dapet duit sesuai harganya sampe batas waktu tertentu. Dan jujur gue susah banget ngilangin kebiasaan ini. Dari sekarang gue mau belajar!

Gue udah menyimpulkan. Kunci dari semua itu adalah:

-Bersyukur

-Bersabar

-Memberi

-Shalawat

-Disiplin

-Jangan membatasi diri sendiri

-Percaya

Mulai hari ini gue mau belajar. Keliatannya nggak sulit tapi ya balik lagi ke disiplin. Kalo nggak disiplin percuma juga emang. Mungkin bertahun-tahun kemudian gue akan baca lagi tulisan ini. Dan kita lihat sama-sama apa gue akan membaca ini dengan senyum puas dan rasa bangga atau masih dengan perasaan yang sama dan PERCAYA. Kita lihat aja nanti, yang jelas NEVER SAY NEVER!