It Spirit

Happy Saturday! I woke up early this morning. Around 6:40 am but stayed in bed for about 20 minutes LOL. I haven’t done any morning activities but turned on my computer and started browsing. Well, seems jobless daily life. Actually, I had some things to do for this week. I gotta do BEM report for Tuesday and somehow there’s a deadline for editing our short clip, and I ignore them all as I don’t have anything to do.

You know, I realized this is one of my bad habits. I’d like to postpone everything I had to done even I know the deadline. I’d like to do everything in a short-time-to-deadline so I can do it seriously. Well, honestly, I hate this habit. It isn’t like I easily give up about something, but easily get bored about anything I done. Though, I know it’s not good but I’m still doing it and I don’t know how to stop this kind of disease. Geez.

In fact that, this morning, I had planned to continue my write. It’s like I have stuck in a brain freeze for months. And this morning, I intended to continue but as soon as I turned on the computer, what I’ve done is just connected the internet and started browsing for new movie. In the same time, I watched SHINee’s One Fine Day variety show. As today is #5YearsWithSHINee. Happy SHINee day J. After that, I checked out my twitter and facebook. It takes too long to went back to the straight way of my first plan, searching for new idea. The new chapter of my writing is about some location in San Francisco. Though, I don’t know much about the city, I gotta finish it. So, first I looked up Wikipedia to check what is famous in San Francisco. After a while, I didn’t get what I need and as usual, I get bored and decided to write this post. Very clever.

I don’t know would I finish some tasks for today or just doing nothing. But, I wish I could sweep away this habit. I need cheers and spirit to do things so first, I wish I could find out what will be my spirit. This morning is clear and my head is about to blue -___-

I suddenly remember my last chat with Rangers. We found out that we are Less girls. For me, Heartless as I never have relationship or (they think) I never have intention to boys. Pink Brown Ranger, Loveless, because nobody has intention to draw love in her heart for years. LOL. Grey Ranger is Careless. Idk, she’s decided by herself. Of course, there was a reason behind it. And last but no least, White Ranger stands for Soulless. Because she’s just too soulless to have sensitivity about what happen around her. Compared to her, I prefer to be a heartless. At least, well, even though it sounds a bit similar but, well, I don’t know. I just feel like I’m better. LOL. And the conclusion is, WE ARE PEMALES. Pemales means lazy. And it similar with Female less pronunciation. We are clever like a crow!

Last, I want to have spirit to finish my tasks. Happy Saturday!

I’m Ranger Black. Am I really lazy?

Funny

I’ve just watch a Korean variety show, We Got Married, and suddenly I want to write this in a rush. Well, there’s a scene when Taemin (Shinee) said that he usually didn’t like people do couple things. Like, bought couple things and others. He hated it because he was jealous.  But since he has got married, and he did things like that with his wife, he enjoyed it himself. He told that, if I didn’t do this kind of things now, in this age, then when will I can do this again? And something suddenly stabbed my heart. Like… oh, it definitely ME!! I just imagined if I got a boyfriend in my mature age, it means I couldn’t do cute and childlike things like that. Even after I wrote this, I still don’t know what to do.

I’m Ranger Black. Am I really a heartless?

I Love You For A Heart Attack

The day we met, frozen I held my breath.

Right from the start, I knew that I found the home for my heart

Heart beats fasts. Colors and promises.

How to be brave? How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?

But watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer.

I give up forever to touch you. ‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow.

You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be. And I don’t want to go home right now.

All I can taste is this moment. All I can breathe is your life.

But sooner or later it’s over. I just don’t want to miss you tonight.

I’m never break a sweat for the other guy. But when you come around I get paralyzed

And every time I try to be myself, it comes out wrong like a cry for help.

You make me so nervous that I just can’t hold your hand.

You make me glow. But I cover up won’t let it show.

So I’m putting my defenses up. Cause I don’t want to fall in love

If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack.

And I don’t want the world to see me.

Cause I don’t think that they’d understand.

And when everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am

I have died everyday waiting for you.

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years. 

I love you for a thousand more.

All along I believed I would find you. The time has brought your heart to me.

I have loved you for a thousand years. 

I love you for a thousand more.

Paulo Coelho

When you find your path, you must not be afraid. You need to have sufficient courage to make mistakes.

You drown not by falling into a river, but by staying submerged in it. 

 The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.

 At a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie.

When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

He had worked for an entire year to make a dream come true, and that dream, minute by minute, was becoming less important. Maybe cause that wasn't really his dream. 

Everything is written in the Soul of the World, and there it will stay forever

 There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.

Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time. 

The gods throw the dice, and they don't ask whether we want to be in the game or not. 

But that moment exists — a moment when all the power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles.

 No one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

 In my world, everything is possible and everything is relative.

Laugh at your worries and insecurities. View your anxieties with humor. It will be difficult at first, but you'll gradually get used to it. 

Kampus Superhero in Memoriam

Masa depan kampus superhero terancam! Akhir-akhir ini cuma gue yang rajin nyetor muka di kampus superhero. Kadang-kadang sih ditemenin ranger abu. Ngobrolin soal lomba merakit senjata. Ranger yang lainnya pada (sok) sibuk semua. Ranger putih sekarang sibuk kerja di departemen pembuatan bangunan di dunia antah berantah. Ranger kuning yang emang udah musyrik dari kapan tau, ngajak ranger pink kecoklatan buat ikut konspirasi kegelapan yang dibawahi Si Musuh Besar. Markasnya depan rumah gue lagi. Jadi sekarang cuma gue yang masih di jalan kebenaran? Oke, fine! Kampus superhero semakin krisis anggota. Bentar lagi Sailormoon bakal lulus dari akademi kebulanannya. Malem ini lagi nunggu pengumuman. Besok dia ulang tahun. Gue ngasih kado doa aja semoga skripsinya dapat bulan lima. (Baru dapet update-an: Sheilamoon LULUS. Nilai 89,1. Huruf mutu A. IPK 3,26. Yudisium Sangat Memuaskan) makan-makan~~~ Gue sendiri di kampu lebih sering terdampar di pulau Sirens. Itu tuh, pulau yang ada di laut monster. Kalo orang lewat suka dinyanyiin lagu Sirens. Lagu jebakan supaya orang-orang yang denger bakal ngeliat apa yang paling dipengenin sama tu orang. Mulai ngawur. Oke. Yang jelas gue nggak tau kampus superhero ke depannya bakal gimana.

Sudden Thought

Suddenly I thought about the different of liking and loving someone.

Like is when Ray Hirano draws his feeling towards Mia Clark
Where, love is when Alex Hirano takes care, understand, and knows everything about Mia Clark