The hardest welcome, the hardest goodbye :'(

Guess what?? Today is 24th April, it means I have passed the day that I avoided so much. yep, it was 23rd, the day Justin Bieber was performing and held a concert in my country, Indonesia. Actually I never thought

that I could pass it all the way. I was thinking that I'd be crying like a baby, fainting, screaming as loud as I can, even the worst was suicide myself :O woooppppsss that's a big dangerous decision. but they all were just in my vision lol. Im still alive though.

So, what am I gonna talk is definitely about Justin Bieber. Lemme explain lil bit. He arrived here on Friday after having flight from Malaysia. Of course he's not alone, as usual he bring his crew, bodyguard, manager, and his momma for sure, and his girlfriend too. woooottss, I just mentioned someone controversial eh? yeah, he was here with his lovely girlfriend Selena Gomez. Im dying when I had known that they landed together in Malaysia a day before so I didnt very surprised to know that he bring Selena here too.

Naaahhh, Im not jealousy guys, she's such a nice girl anyway, but I think is it not danger to bring her in tour because there's somebody, ummm I mean, alot of Beliebers are hating on her. eeerrr, that's mean but it is the fact right?

ok, I dont want to comment much about her arrival. At that day (friday) there was alot of Beliebers waiting on the Airport. The news said they were waiting patiently first then it became hotter when Justin's plane almost landed. They must felt so nervous, anxious, worried and tired too so they were becoming wild. They started crying, screaming, running back and forth to see Justin. But how poor, They all were messed up by the team. so in the end thet didnt find Justin at all. Justin was taken to the hotel directly after landed. They say there are 3 hotels that was booked by the promotors to deceive ppl. 

The show begin on Satnite, about 7-8 p.m. idk becoz I wasnt there lol. He sang about 11 songs in one half hour. It must be a very memorable, wonderful, amazing night but it wasnt without me lol. 

That's all I knew. I still can't believe I was in the same country and town with him but I regret how awful it is when I realized that I couldnt even see his shilouette :'(

I know it was all my fault. I give up from the first time. I said I wouldnt attend his concert though but in the last I started suggest myself that there is always a chance so I tried to stand tall. Searching and seeking every chance I can got as much as I can. I tried some quiz and competition because I think there's no time to save money but I failed them all. And some friends keep on asking me how about ask my daddy to buy the tix. It's a big no no, I dont want to force my daddy to use his money just for my own ego. In the end I just can cried, in many reason I still Never Say Never eventhough just a few time left. I pray to God everyday to get a chance. It helpful u know, Everytime I closer to God, asked him for help, and crying in front of him it's like He lend a shoulder to me, take my hand and said "I'd receive all ur pray. I will make it true, just wait and see. I have a better plan for you. Maybe next time, just keep on praying and do the best. U will get all what u want if u want to be a lil patient." 

And of course, I believe Him. He wouldnt leave me alone. I believe I can go to his concert next time. moreover I have enough time to save money, right? thank's God. and the good news I didnt even shed a tear yesterday. Amazingly because all I know is pain a few days lately. I've been crying a whole week and even weeks before the show and I through it all. thank's God, very thankful.

and like people say there always bright side. I didnt go so I didnt feel how worst the traffic is and the crowded OMG! it must be very full with those people. yeah, I was home listening to JB's full album while lying down in bed. it was not very bad to cheer myself up.

But the show is over and Justin with his crew are heading to the next country of My World Tour. bye Justin~~

Thanks for coming here Justin, eventhough I cant see ur concert Live but I wish u want to come here again.

Next time I promise I will attend it. I will buy the tix with my own money and my daddy let me to go too.

lol. miss us Justin, miss Indonesia because we always miss u :)

hey, I got some picts of Justin here.

These all picts are very cool. They were taken when he's arrived at SoeTta Airport, Jakarta. Justin looks so dayum, hot, and attractive. and Selena too, looks so beautiful and naturally. mmmm I wish I was the security lol. How lucky he is :')

These was taken at the hotel I think. wooowww, lucky kids. They all look cute right? but Justin looks exshausted or what. because he looks like not so interistting with the kids. Otherwise Selena seems so warm to the girls. I WANT TO BE THOSE GIRLS OMB!!

ok ok stop me. Im so Hyped.
and yeah, since he's here I noticed that Justin rarely smile. idk it's just my feelings or u feel it too. and also Justin was very protected to Selena. He's like "hey, give a way to my girlfriend." more like Kenny. It's funny when Kenny officially guard him and he's guuard Selena. lol
U have a lil boy bodyguard Selena, lucky you!

the pict above is Jelena with a singer in Indonesia called Rossa. so envy :'( how lucky she is. She got a pict with em in the backstage after the show I think. Huhuhuuu

And I found a pict. I think this one is soooo epic. checkitdout

OMBOMBOMB Justin's phone background. They are seems a cute couple. It's so mean if some ppl wants them to split up, even if it's a Beliebers. I accept that if it makes Justin happy :')

and this one is Justin tweeted about Indonesia :)

Aftter all I learned something that there always a chance. not now, maybe next time. Just keep trying and praying. Never Say Never though u have failed then stand up again. We can make it true. 

Meet Justin, watch his concert, got his sign, be his OLLG, got a pict with him, be his crew, dancer, friend, girlfriend, or even his bride. There's always a chance and never think that's impossible bcoz God told that Nothing is impossible :')

Lol, Justin sang who says. wooott epic. btw, I love this song so much. it such an inspirational song to me. In this song Selena cheers girls and says that we all are beautiful. It's like she says to me " It's ok Risma, u r beautiful though. Its not impossible u can replaced me someday" lol EPICFAIL

yeah Selena, I want ur boyfriend!! wwhhhooopss sorry. I am the open one. I want u Justin, I want ur hugs, i want ur kiss, I want ur everything!! it sounds like bitch, huh?

we are closer to the end of the post, and the last I want to show u the last video. The official video of Who Says. Enjoy :)

I have a god news, the Exam was over *Epic* and since that I dont have any activities. there's no important of school anymore till the graduate. so idk what to do if I still go to school besides chill with my friends. It seems not so interisting because idk, I just want to have my own time alone. Im planning to write a novel maybe. I had have the idea in my mind but idk where it will begin as a story.

Ok, enough for this post. I will post again later. My uncle and auntie are on the way to my house after landed yesterday from Mecca. I gotta hurry up. bye guys~~

have a nice day. GBU ^^

Child = Happiness

Im two days straight to the National Exam. dont ready yet but the battle ahead. It's probably not easy to faced but Im sure what will happen wont ever beat me. We as a student has spent 3 years to study eventhough we arent smart enough to take the exam but at least we fight with the subject we dont into and we still be positive to face it well.
ok, so far I don't get what to tell but Im confusion about everything lately. First, about the exam, it will be held 4 days. Perhaps, they will be the hardest days of my life. Im scared of it but I have to fight with it though. idk though I have studied about 3 years in high school but Im not good at many subject especially exact, I told you -,-
being a science's student is not easy to me although I take the risk.
And the second is all about Bieber's concert. Just a week till his first landed here but I still don't have the tix to go to his concert. It seems not important at all compared to the national exam but I still worry it. I just can't take it, being his fan since last year, do everything to buy his stuff seems not enough to get a chance to meet him. Sure I have done any effort but at last God decided. I prepare myself to receive God's decision eventhough I don't ready yet.
After so many problem I got right now, I just gone back to the lasts memory, when I was child, when I have nothing to figured out, when I had never got too much problem like this.
I really  miss . . .


being a child
being a lil girl
being so innocent
being immature
being loved
being careless
crying with no doubt
didn't have to be perfect
didn't get any trouble
didn't need to choose
didn't have to study hard to pass the test
didn't know the guy who sings "baby"
never ashamed to cry
never had a crush
never fell in love
never broken heart
never fallen apart
never had a secret
had no offense
not be blamed about myself mistake
having someone who caught all the tears
having someone who always lend a shoulder
having someone who give anything I wanted


I miss those kid stuff, I hate to be perfect all the time, being so good at anything, blame to all mistake I had done whereas everybody has their mistake, to know the fake one, to hurt everyday, to hide the pain, try and try again to stand up then fall again, have to be responsible, I hate to do this all alone. That's why Im scared to be grown up. It means I'd take the risk of life alone. No one will cares because they had their own life too.
Im not desperate, I just need someone to talk, to share with. 

oohh, ok, if  I stay longer here it seems I would turn to be a Drama Queen Lol
at the end I think there's no need to regret. God created us to be somebody. Im sure if thankful to everything he gave I will bless. Someday the dreams I dream will become true. No one can beat me. Trust it because nothing is impossible. 

Hahhahha. seems Im a moody person. I can be very bad mood then be good at the same time. 
Last but no least dont forget to pray for me. I need yall to encourage me and told me that I can do it :)


byee guys, I gotta take a shower then go to school. Today is the last day of school before the exam. muaacchhh :* :* ILY
have a nice day ^_^ GBU

This is what we called Beliebers thing!

Today, 09:10 p.m on 11th April, straight a week till the national exam I decided to blogging again.

I dunno it seems I no worried at all about the exam I'd take a week later. I swear I remember it everyday, I even try to planning on study all this week but it so hard to do then lol.
So, from 18 - 21 I will take my exam. The worst 4 days ever. On the first day I will face Bahasa's exam and Biology *uurrgghh, it seems not good. Then the next day it will be Math. On the third days there's two subject again, English and Chemistry. And the last day is Physics. I'm too scared of those exact subject. I dont even think I would probably face them all. Actually I dont ready yet but I stiil be a stubborn kid. Not even going to take some study instead of going on blogging lol.


and Im gonna told you that I hate next whole week. The exam maybe last in 4 days but my bad lucky is all over the week. it's because on Saturday, 23th, that will be the date that Justin Bieber's concert in Indonesia. The date he will landed here for the first time. The day that I waited for in my entire life. So sad to realize that I probably wouldnt see him around :'(
For the first time I've been sucked by myself. I dont know what to do. I dont think it will be so soon. I think he will come at least next year not this year. I regreted it I didnt saved enough money to buy the tix, even the cheapest one :'(
Nooo, dont force me, I might start crying just now.


I never say never though. I try my best. I done what can I do as possible as I can. I join some competition from sponsors even I didnt win it. I tried as much as I can. Taking some quizes everyday even I know Im in the low rank. Poor I am. up till now, I dont know what will I do on next Saturday. I dont wanna stay at my room, crying like a baby. but I dont have any idea to cheers myself.
ok, so I end up with this topic. Just remember this isnt I supposed to write at all at the first time :D
In fact all I wanna do is show yall some picts of me in order to join the competition. Me and my sister *thanks for helping me sist :) worked hard to arrange the Bieber's stuff. We had some arguments about 'where is this going to put?' 'does this poster sattisfied taped here?' and 'which angle is the best one?'
I against her all the time but she always win it because she threaten me if i wont take her decision she wont help me to prepare the things. how mean you are sissy :(
but after all the fight we did it. We did some good picts :)
anyway, sissy took all the picts. here they are . . .

 

I gotta mention yall my face was really sucks. After working hard and thru all those unimportant fight with my sissy I was very exhausted so I definitely forced to smile. It's not compared to the situation that I should look really happy. lol.

and I added some more picts. 

These picts were requested by my sister. She asked me to take some more picts with the computer's background. I refused her because it's all too much besides I was very tired to look good again. But my sister forced me to do that then we started fighting again. Of course the fight was ended by her was coming out as the winner. yeah, she all the way always win *sigh*.

Finally I did it again, and my face once again looks sucker than before. It's like awajghjewahjjgjwaegjhhjjhgkkja :0 lol.

Before upload it I had to edit them. and thanks again to my sister who edited the picts :*

Here they go . . .

That's them all, and finally we got them all in one. Here it is, the pict was gonna upload that had been done after taking hours to edited them.

Even I failed the contest but there's no regret at all. Doing this makes me realized my Bieber's stuff are kinda very much. I was like 'Wooow, did I buy them all on my own money? How can I bring them all home? Can I buy the tix concert if I sold them all?' Lol. Funny to know that I really obsessed with this guy. Over a year Im kinda addicted with him and I dont remember how much money I spent to buy his stuff. After all what I did is amazing,, he gotta know this :')

Ok, enough for this post. I dont know yet will I attend the concert or not but Im still wishing. Please God, give me a chance. Gonna try till the end. Never Say Never.

jeah jeah, I will definitely make it true because he always encourage me to Believe In Everything Because Everything's Reachable and Never Say Never :D *swag*

Before saying goodbye I wanna show you a really touching pict for me. My besties draw it. check it out!

the second pict is the pict wich was editeed with our name on it. This pict will be memorable ever :'(

Thank yall for reading another awful post of mine. GBU ^^