Ranger Is Back!

Actually, in this semester we rarely had our member complete because of some reasons. And the first and unimportant reason is because Yellow Ranger rarely present these days. Yeah, he always said that he is busy or something blahblahblah I don’t wanna talk because he’s so brag about it. And seriously, I can’t believe that he had a girlfriend. It’s something we must thank because he isn’t homo anymore but I felt a little sorry to his girlfriend. Maybe she had hypnotized by Yellow Ranger that she just end up like that being his girlfriend. If only I know her. Poor her.

So yeah, after our vacuum in a while and we almost re-sign Yellow Ranger as our member, we finally had a perfect time to be gathered again. That was when we had our photograph mid test. As it, we tested in our new studio. Yaaayy, I’m very grate to it. Finally our studio can be used. Yeah, we were examined to do some B&W photograph. As all of members are camera addict (especially me and Pink Brown Ranger) we just couldn’t get off the camera. We always asked to be the model but PBR always win because of her body that took all of the photograph area so I was easily thrown away.

After had a weird photography finally all members were gathered in a frame. We took a lot of photos and memories so well. I can’t say that I missed this moment. It’s mean I wasn’t actually miss Yellow Ranger. Oh, please. But I really enjoyed that time. We never had a chance to be in a frame before. Oh, actually it was once but it’s not counting. So yeah, we just worked out as a super model. That was such a fun time because it felt like long ago since we could chillin together. I’m not sure we will hold Yellow Ranger anymore but since that day we just pending the re-sign day of him. LOL

Thanks God for that day. Everything, everytime, and every moment should be thanks eventhough it’s with the Rangers. And for Yellow Ranger, thanks God you weren’t re-signed yet. I wish we could have some moments like this. Wait! Don’t think that I wish to be in a frame with them anymore. I mean I wish I could have some good photograph again. 

The face that always came out in every frame, Pink Brown Ranger

Black & White Monokurobo

Actually I lacked bout it. I'm always shaking whenever I bring something. so my photograph didn't came out good. it's always like blur or something. but fortunately there's no me on it :p

RANGER IS BACK!

with Miss G

The butt that PBR regret so much. but this pict i like a lot :D

Thanks for take a look in this post. see ya around. Kbye

Pride's Winning

Wooaahh, I’ve been busy lately that I couldn’t update post here. No, I’m just joking. It’s not that I’m very busy but I was just not in my mood to post anything though I have a lot of things to tell. About two weeks ago, or more? Idk, just about that time, my friends and I were had a good time. We’ve just passed the choir competition. It’s kinda burdensome because we have to do it right since we brought the faculty’s pride. But, after working hard about weeks we could get a little satisfied because we’re in the 4^th rank. It’s not bad because this is our first time had a work together so it wasn’t easy to all of us. But I guess everybody had a great time since it wasn’t just about win the competition but the feeling of having a new family is more important than anything. Since the competition ended we started to joke like “when will we practice again?” or singing Nina Bobo, the song we sang that day, as a joke or something like that. We indeed miss moments like that. 

Thinking about that day again. We were worried about our quality because even we had been practicing so much but it wasn’t enough for sure. It still had lacked in some side but as we were a team we had to hide each other’s weakness. That’s what we called team, right? But I saw in everyone that we were very confident about it too. Since we were not counting as a hard rival by the others, we started to make confident by ourselves. Yeah, I know many people were looking down for us. Like, that faculty can’t absolutely win even the lower rank but we did the opposite though. Just like people say “Don’t judge a book by its cover”. You could probably think anything of anybody but you just can’t judge like that till you know the person itself. Sounds like I’m a wise person, huh? LOL

Anyway, it called back my memories back then when we practice hard. That was not easy to meet up all of the member. We had some effort to gather the member for sure. The earlier day, it wasn’t much people who attend the practice. Everybody was complaining about the time. They all rushed for going home instead practice more. Yeah, thought it wasn’t fun. They also choose attend the class rather than had practiced more. For me, I’m a bit different. I really enjoy practicing because… hmm, how can I tell that I really enjoy singing all the way. It’s like I found a right moment to let my lungs out. I even wished we had more time to practicing. In case I couldn’t find a right place to singing like crazy. You know, I can DEFINITELY not do it at home. My daddy would kick my ass out! LOL. Honestly, I could spend all day singing like that instead of attend some fvcking sleepy class :p. But after thru times by times changing anything. I didn’t hear people begging to going home or such things anymore. It’s like they were definitely enjoy practicing even we were practicing a lot in a sweat and hot room. This is true that the room has no ventilation since we were practicing in the studio. It’s friggin hot OMG! And I appreciated it more. I know time changes everything. Initially they couldn’t enjoy it but in the end they knew how to make it easier. 

Of course we took a lot of pictures too and I will show you some of them because we took pictures from many cameras and I don’t have all of ‘em yet. Yeah, a pict worth thousand words. I like this words because it is true. You can see how we feel so excited and enthusiastic holding the trophy. So blessed that day! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

That was fun though after performed I had big trouble with my throat. I lost my voice for sure but fortunately it happened after our performance. Still can thankful for it. I don’t know why the weird fact that half of people got cold today included me. It’s like stage fever (?) or something like sick before performing something. I’m sure I got it right. That day was killing me but still I didn’t realized till I got home. I got sleep right away after arrived at home. That was such a big and tired day. I wish we could bring back some good memories in another day.

I think I end up with telling story about the choir day. I gotta move to another topic. What kind of topic is that? So I said on the top that I’ve been busy lately. Do you believe that I really meant it? Of course not, right? LOL. But at least I tried to be busy by myself lately. Why do I insist to become so busy? Because I had nothing to do. Okay, I just tried to make everyone curious what I’m gonna talk about though I know nobody would care at all. Yeah, recently I found something fun to do. Yup, I’m kind of busy learning Korean language. It’s kinda fun to me since I always excited for learn such things. Learn foreign language can always succeed make me happy and feel like I’m going to be a smart person LOL. It’s not make sense at all but that’s exactly what I feel. 

Actually, I didn’t think I would learn Korean before. It was like I have no related anything about Korean and I’m sure I have more interested in Japan but I don’t know since when I definitely have interested on it. But time goes by and after watching some Korean variety show I was like “Wow, I have to expert this language for sure.” And you know, learning such a thing is not that easy. Besides, it was very strange to me since they have a different type of writing from common alphabet. They use Hangeul, Korean writing. For the first time I’m not sure I could barely understand about it but you wouldn’t know till you try. Yup, for a moment I thought it will be hard to learn if I can’t read Hangeul and I’m not sure at all that I can expert those things but after trying, there was nothing to worry about. I also couldn’t believe that I can read Hangeul now, even with much effort and neither fluently nor clearly, but at least I can read it now. And it was not that hard. Can I say it is way far from difficult? Not that I want to brag but I still can’t believe too I was learnt it just by a day. I don’t know what was wrong with my head but it was easier than I thought. I can say with confident now that I can read Hangeul. Just imagined how proud I am LOL.

But still, yeah, it can be that short time to expert something. And I still on my way to learn more about Korean. I’m sure it’s not that hard like learning English because I think Korean have Asian language style. It’s not much different from Indonesian way of language. Asian style is simpler than English I thought. I don’t mean that English was hard to learn but sometimes I still confused to use tenses or grammar. The only matter here is just the structure of making sentence. It’s a little bit different between Korean sentence and Indonesian or English because they put object before predicate. So, it’s a lil bit confusing for me. However I still want to learn more. I won’t beaten by just some confusing structure. I will definitely expert this one. At least I can read Hangeul now and it’s a step forward, right? It sounds like I’m bragging now ~LOL. Okay, I’ll admit that I am very proud of myself. I never feel this proud before.

Anyway, before I end up this post I wanna tell you that days ago I had succeed my scheme towards White Ranger. Coincide to April Fool was White Ranger’s birthday. It was Sunday so we couldn’t do our plan in the exact day so we did it in Monday. The plan was doing from Saturday. Grey and Pink Brown Ranger pretended that they are mad with her. And for me, I was like there’s nothing wrong happened. We left her behind anywhere that day. We also asked her new boyfriend to take a part of this scheme. I was definitely the one who made up all of the situation but I was be the one who pretend to didn’t know anything. I had thought about it more if we all ignored her that day he will be suspicious us so I decided to be the one who looks innocent. So the day of the evil day I asked her boyfriend to break up with her just to made her sad. Actually this one is suggested by Yellow Ranger, thanks anyway. And that day we successfully made her to be the fool one. I felt sorry but happy at the same time. Finally, I got revenge! And it wouldn’t stop till all of Ranger member, who was there when I got fooled in my birthday, get the revenge. Just watch out ya guys! You, you, and you… Yellow, Grey, and Pink Brown Ranger. I will make you all get the revenge of me. Muahahuehuahuehuahue

Thanks for reading another awful post of mine. I got tired of thinking what topic I will make out. So yeah, have a bless day and see you around :)

I Like Fried Chicken Better Than Boys

Akhirnya, dua minggu lebih setelah postingan terakhir gue, hari ini gue memutuskan buat posting lagi. Di bulan maret ini gue baru sempet bikin satu postingan jadi postingan kali ini bakal jadi postingan kedua gue bulan ini. Muahuehuahue. Penting, eh?

First thing first, gue mau ngucapin Happy Birthday buat kakak gue yang baru aja memasuki kepala 2 tanggal 12 kemarin. Nggak kerasa ternyata dia udah tua. Itu artinya gue ikutan tua. Dan gue paling males kalo mikirin tua-tuaan. Akhir tahun ini gue bakal 19 dan akhir tahun depan gue juga ikutan berkepala 2. Apa-apaan ini? Bisa nggak sih waktunya diberentiin aja gitu. Tapi jangan napas gue yang diberentiin.

Hari ini gue mau posting apa, sebenernya gue juga nggak tau. Tapi tadi sore gue ngobrol sama temen gue (Ranger Abu) yang bilang kalo dia mau curhat di blog-nya tentang kekeselannya sama seorang atasan di tempat kerjanya. Tiba-tiba gue inget 2 minggu terakhir ini gue jarang posting. Walaupun  gue tau, nggak di update pun nggak ada yang sadar tapi sebagai pemiliknya gue harus bertanggung jawab ngurus dong. Nah, pada tulisan kali ini gue ngomong ngalor ngidul aja.

Pertama, kemana aja gue 2 minggu terakhir ini? Jawabannya adalah nggak kemana-mana. Seorang gue dimana lagi sih keberadaannya selain di rumah. Udah 15 hari terakhir gue puasa buat sesuatu hal. Harusnya puasa ini dikerjain 21 hari makanya waktu itu gue mulai puasa setelah selesai menstruasi.  Tapi entah ini sial atau apa hari ini gue dapet! Iya, tadi pagi abis sahur dan selesai sholat subuh juga tiba-tiba gue menyadari kalo gue kedatangan tamu bulanan. Herannya ini baru 15 hari sesudah tamu bulan lalu dateng. Harusnya kan jangkanya tiga minggu kenapa ini… arghhhh kamfeeerrr sekaliiihh!!! Gue pengen gigit-gigit Ranger Pink Kecoklatan kalo gini caranya. Biasanya juga gue selalu telat tapi bulan ini kenapa malah kecepatan! Ah, sudahlah. Kayaknya nggak etis juga kalo gue ngomongin ‘tamu’ ini di blog.

Syukurnya, beberapa hari terakhir gue udah mulai aktif ngampus lagi. Setelah sekian lama semangat ngampus gue ilang akhirnya gue udah mulai terbiasa lagi dengan jadwal kampus yang masih acak-acakan. Gue maksain untuk rajin kampus lagi karena gue tau temen-temen gue udah kangen stadium akut sama gue. Mereka tiap hari ngerayu gue supaya nggak pulang cepet dan ikut kelas sore. Muahuehuahue. Gue nggak begitu  bangga juga sih tapi seenggaknya gue bisa ngebahagiain temen-temen gue yang udah nahan kangen ke gue selama ini.

Nah, selama gue jarang ngampus ternyata banyak banget gossip yang gue lewatin. Akibatnya hari-hari pertama masuk gue cengo denger pembicaraan mereka. Ranger Abu sih masih setia nunggu Mr. Simple nya yang menurut gue bener-bener simple. Saking simple nya si Ranger Abu ngenes juga nasibnya nggak pernah di tanggepin gitu. Istilah kasarnya Ranger Abu tu invisible buat si Mr. Simple. Intinya Ranger Abu belum mau  dan mencoba move on. Ada lagi Ranger Putih yang sekarang deket sama senior yang inisialnya N***N. Sebenernya kakak ini emang udah jadi gebetannya dari awal kuliah, cuma setau gue kak N***N ini baru ngampus lagi setelah berbulan-bulan jarang nongol karena kerja jadi salah satu pengajar Bahasa Inggris di Jakarta. Akhirnya kisah cinta Ranger Putih tenggelam seiring dengan menghilangnya kak N***N dari peredaran kampus. Dan waktu itu juga setau gue Ranger Putih emang masih punya cowok. Sekarang dia udah jomblo jadi sepertinya dia mulai melancarkan  aksinya buat PDKT lagi ke kak N***N. Sayangnya, si cowok udah punya cewek jadi hubungan mereka sampe saat ini cuma kakak-adek-an tapi mesra gitu. Walaupun begitu kayaknya kak N***N juga welcome aja sama Ranger Putih jadi sepertinya masih bisa direbut HAHA. Kata kakak gue juga yang notabene satu angkatan sama dia, hubungannya sama ceweknya biasa-biasa aja. Gue menyimpulkannya hubungan mereka mungkin udah garing tapi ada alasan tertentu kenapa mereka masih bareng. Pada intinya status Ranger Putih juga masih gantung.

Lain lagi sama Ranger Pink Kecoklatan yang naksir sama kakak Macho. Akhirnya dia berhasil move on dari manusia sikat WC-nya selama 6 tahun itu. Tapi nasib sial masih aja ngikutin tu anak. Si kakak macho itu baru aja jadian beberapa minggu ini. Ngenes sekali yah! Beberapa hari yang lalu si kakak Macho itu ultah dan Ranger Pink Kecoklatan dengan kefrontalannya sebagai seorang yang udah berpengalaman naksir orang selama 6 tahun, ngasih kado sketsa foto kakak Macho itu yang dia gambar sendiri di kertas dan ditulis Happy Birthday. Gue sebagai otak pembantu dan beberapa teman lain inisiatif majang sketsa itu di mading fakultas. Gue nggak tau akhirnya gimana tapi abis si kakak Macho itu liat, posisi sketsanya pindah jadi ganjelan di salah satu pintu ruang kelas (kalo nggak salah). Dan Ranger Pink Kecoklatan dengan murkanya bawa pulang tu sketsa dan dia bakar di rumah. Gue bingung antara sedih sama kocak. Emang miris dan bikin eneg banget. Tapi Ranger Pink Kecoklatan nggak mau proses move on nya terhambat di satu cowok. Dia coba cari gebetan lain yang sekarang dia panggil kakak Surga. Alesannya karena katanya tiap liat dia si Ranger PK ngerasa adem. Pas gue ceritain itu ke kakak gue (maklum gue emang sharing semuanya ke kakak gue) kakak gue bilang; “Najis, bilangin tu ke si Ranger Pink Kecoklatan. Si kakak surga itu orang yang paling nggak direkomendasiin dari satu angkatan.” Gue ngakak dan ngerasa sedih ke Ranger Pink Kecoklatan. Mungkin emang nasib nggak mengizinkan dia buat move on.

Ranger Kuning juga digosipin suka sama dosen yang namanya bu Flower. Setau gue beliau juga kerja di KORAN, tabloid tempat 4 Ranger itu sekarang jadi wartawan. Tapi gue kurang tau posisi beliau apa. Yaah, pokoknya begitulah. Tapi gue nggak mau terlalu ngurusin. Gue bingung mau ngedukung atau apa. Di satu sisi gue seneng dia berusaha move on dari kehomoannya tapi disisi lain gue kasian sama Bu Flower. Oya, gebetan-gebetannya 3 Ranger lain itu semua temen satu angkatan kakak gue jadi mereka selalu modus nanya jadwal kakak gue ke gue. Padahal mau nanya jadwal gebetan masing-masing. Dipikir gue bagian informasi apa! Perasaan cowok kakak gue aja nggak nanya-nanya jadwal gitu.

Pada intinya mereka semua lagi dalam tahap move on tapi enatah kenapa, sialnya malah jadi stuck di tempat. Tiap hari topiknya itu lagiii itu lagiiii. Kadang gue bosen juga dengernya. Entah kenapa dari SMA gue paling sebel kalo ada yang ngomongin cowok. Pernah tuh, ada geng cewek gitu di kelas yang nggak pernah absen ngomongin cowok tiap hari. Heran. Kok ada terus gitu ya topiknya? Gue curiga mungkin sehari aja nggak ngomongin cowok mereka pada mati kali, ya? Setiap ada pembicaraan soal cowok-cowokan gue berusaha kabur secepet mungkin. Yang paling gue benci tu kalo udah season curhat, galau-galauan dan minta saran ke gue. Lo pikir lo bisa dapet saran apa dari orang yang single selama hidupnya??! sebenernya gue pendengar yang baik. Gue suka denger pengalaman dan cerita orang. Itu kenapa gue welcome aja kalo ada yang mau curhat. Asal jangan galau stadium akhir + minta saran aja. Pokoknya sekarang semua anggota Ranger (kecuali gue) lagi in love semua. Gue menggunakan kesempatan sebaik mungkin buat ngeledekin mereka abis-abisan kalo lagi galau atau salting kalo lagi depan gebetan mereka. Tapi mereka malah ngatain gue heartless. Mereka bilang gue nggak punya hati dan nggak bisa jatuh cinta. Lebih parahnya lagi mereka ngira gue lesbi. Gue juga nggak bisa jawab iya atau enggak. HAHA

Oke, pada intinya setelah nulis ratusan kata diatas, sebenernya gue mau nulis tentang ini. Tentang kenapa gue terlihat sangat heartless selama ini. Seperti yang selalu gue bilang, gue nggak pernah pacaran selama 18 tahun hidup gue dan jumlah tahunnya bakal terus bertambah entah sampai angka berapa. Alasan awalnya klasik dan kuat. Nggak diizinin bokap. Dari dulu semua orang juga tahu kalo bokap gue emang keras dan banyak aturan terutama kalo soal lawan jenis. Dulu gue pikir mungkin dibatasin sampe 17 tahun karena standarnya kan orang tua baru ngizinin anaknya pacaran waktu umur 17. Tapi ternyata persepsi gue nggak terbukti. Kakak gue yang waktu itu udah nginjek umur 17 tahun dan mulai pengen pacaran tetep nggak dikasih lampu hijau buat pacaran. Terus berlanjut sampe dia kuliah.  Walaupun gitu, kakak gue yang pada dasarnya emang lebih rebelish dari gue tetep nabrak lampu merah HAHA. Time changes everything. Seiring berjalannya waktu bokap gue mulai kasih banyak kelonggaran. Sekarangpun beliau tau kalo kakak gue punya pacar dan nggak banyak ngambil tindakan. Bokap gue ngebiarin (bukan ngizinin) anaknya pacaran asal dalam batas tertentu.

Gue sebagai remaja normal, pastinya pernah ngerasain namanya suka sama orang. Contohnya Justin, kalo itu bisa dibilang suka bukan nge-fans. Tapi yang nyatanya, gue inget pertama kali suka sama cowok waktu SMP. Namanya juga sekedar suka-sukaan doang, abis lulus dan pas gue inget lagi ternyata itu jadi hal yang paling gue sesalin. It’s like, what the heck I was thinking back then? Bisa-bisanya gue suka sama orang itu. Di SMA juga pernah sekali. Atau dua? Entah. Yang jelas nggak lebih dari itu. Awalnya gue selalu berpikir, kenapa sih bokap gue nggak ngizinin kami pacaran? Bukannya pacaran itu wajar di umur segini? Bokap gue juga pasti pernah ngerasain kan? Dan lama kelamaan, seiring berjalannya waktu gue sadar there’s no point on dating but having a complicated relationship. Nggak pacaran nggak bikin gue mati. Emang nggak ada salahnya suka sama orang, tapi setiap orang beda. Contohnya gue. Gue bukan orang yang bebas . Gue terikat aturan rumah yang ketat. Gue nggak boleh ada diluar rumah dari sebelum maghrib keatas dengan alasan apapun. Otomatis seandainya gue nekat pengen pacaran segala macem udah jelas gue harus curi-curi waktu buat jalan. Dan yang pasti gue nggak akan pernah bisa malam mingguan! Buat gue, maksain buat pacaran itu satu hal yang harus dipikirin mateng-mateng. Gue bakal sering boongin bokap gue. Hal yang paling gue hindarin. Mungkin buat orang lain sepele tapi bagi gue setiap gue bisa nahan napsu untuk nggak ngelanggar peraturan, disitulah keuntungan gue buat dapat kepercayaan lebih dan kelonggaran dari bokap. Semacam games, tiap bisa ngelewatin satu misi setelahnya bakal dikasih poin lebih.

Sebenernya masalah pacaran ini nggak begitu jadi masalah buat gue. Mungkin beberapa orang bakal kasihan sama posisi gue sekarang tapi buat gue nggak maslaah sama sekali. Sebenernya gue tipe orang yang gampang suka dan tertarik tapi sama tipe-tipe tertentu. Kalo diitung-itung mungkin gebetan gue udah puluhan. Tapi sayangnya, atau untungnya, semua cowok yang gue gebet itu biasanya artis, penyanyi, tokoh dalam buku atau film. Singkatnya tipe idaman gue tu hampir unreal. HAHA. Gue selalu memposisikan tipe gue sebatas itu jadi buat gue tertarik sama tipe yang lain itu susah. Dan sampe saat ini gue belum pernah nemuin orang yang real yang bisa gue suka. Buat gue itu satu keuntungan. Selama tipe-tipe standar itu nggak real di kehidupan gue, selama itu juga gue nggak nemuin hambatan buat terus pada statement gue nggak mau pacaran. Karena sebenernya gue orangnya kalo udah suka sama sesuatu, gue bakal fokus dan terus mikirin satu hal itu. Jelas bakal annoying banget. Dan gue nggak suka galau-galauan. Maka dari itu gue masih betah sama status single gue. Nggak perlu mikirin orang, nggak perlu galau dan sebagainya. Gue nggak bisa bayangin kalo seandainya gue punya pacar. Udah di rumah di atur bokap, masa diluar rumah juga harus diatur pacar. Kita semua tau dalam pacaran pasti bakal ada aturan-aturan nggak tertulis. Bayangin seberapa terkekangnya gue entar. Gue berusaha mensyukuri kebebasan gue waktu gue diluar rumah. Gue setuju sama bokap gue yang bilang, jangan mau diatur-atur. Kita orang bebas kenapa mau diatur-atur. Nanti ada saatnya yaitu fase rumah tangga dimana aturan itu wajib berlaku dan saat itulah kita mau bebas. Aneh ya? waktu status kita bebas kita pengen punya pacar atau pasangan hidup. Tapi pas udah punya pasangan hidup kita malah pengen bebas. Kenapa nggak pas bebas kita nikmatin kebebasan kita jadi pada saat berkeluarga yang bener-bener punya aturan mengikat kita jadi nggak nyesel lagi.

Orang bilang selagi masih remaja, kapan lagi bisa pacaran sebebas ini. Buat gue malah, selagi masih remaja gue pengen fokus sama keluarga. Kumpul sama keluarga dan ngabisin waktu buat keluarga tanpa perlu dibagi-bagi. Karena gue sadar keluarga gue yang sekarang keluarga sementara. Nggak lama lagi mau nggak mau bakal ada keluarga yang sebenarnya buat gue yang namanya rumah tangga. Kalo sekarang gue sia-siain waktu buat ngebagi cinta gue sama orang lain gue bakal rugi berat. Waktu muda kita emang pengen selalu lari dari orangtua tapi waktu udah ada di kehidupan sebenernya tiap ada masalah kita selalu pengen lari ke orang tua. Kadang-kadang manusia itu emang nggak adil dan pengen enaknya aja.

Gue baru aja nyelesein variety show We Got Married season-nya Yong Hwa dan Seo Hyun. Disitu Seo Hyun yang baru umur 20 juga baru pertama kalinya punya pacar (suami) yaitu Yong Hwa. Awalnya Yong Hwa kaget dan mungkin geli umuran segitu Seo Hyun belum pernah pacaran. Dan Seo Hyun nanya ke Yong Hwa apa bedanya suka sama cinta. Dan disitu Yong Hwa speechless abis. Gue juga sering nanya ke temen-temen gue apa bedanya suka sama cinta. Agak susah memang jelasinnya. Tapi buat gue pribadi cinta itu harusnya yang serius. Harusnya kita nggak bisa cinta sama orang yang berbeda-beda dan berkali-kali. Kalo naksir orang kita bilang jatuh cinta rasanya nggak adil banget. Itu makanya gue selalu ngabain perasaan sekedar ‘suka’ ke orang. Suka kan nggak selamanya dan nggak harus dapet respon. Jadi pacaran tetep NGGAK PENTING buat gue. Selain itu menurut gue ada keuntungan lain dari status single gue ini. Perlakuan cowok pun bakal jadi beda. Mereka bakal lebih sopan sama cewek yang ngejaga nama baiknya. Sama kaya Seo Hyun, Yong Hwa keliatan betul ngejaga dan ngehormatin Seo Hyun. Jadi cowok nggak mudah skinship sama kita. Dan itu poin penting buat gue.

Kalau Seo Hyun bilang lebih suka Goguma (sweet potato) dari pada cowok, mungkin bisa dibilang gue lebih suka ayam goreng atau makanan2 lainnya daripada cowok. Punya pasangan seumur hidup penting tapi punya pasangan sementara itu pointless. Nggak ada juga nggak bikin mati. Lagipula rasanya bangga aja selama ini gue belum pernah jadi ‘X’ siapapun. Itu artinya siapapun nanti yang bakal jadi pasangan hidup gue, gue original lho. HAHA. Gue harap siapapun kalian nanti, semoga salah satu diantara Justin Bieber, Mario Maurer, Yong Hwa atau Zayn Malik. Kalau bukan pun nggak papa kok. Tapi pastiin appearance-nya harus mirip salah satu dari mereka. Minimal KW 2 lah. Hehee becanda. Boong ding, serius!

Justin Bieber

Heyya. Today must be 1^st March, but I’m writing this a week before. 1^st March is one of my favorite date because two important persons for me are having birthday! Yes, my lil sister and of course, you should probably know about the-one-and-only Justin Bieber. Y U NO EXCITED??

Okay, ehm. First thing first I would like to say Happy Birthday to both of em. Wish you a happy and long life. I can’t ask for more than your best of your life. But I’m dedicating this post to my-one-and-only Justin Bieber. Yup, today must be your best day of a year. You’re 18 now. OMG we’re in the same age again. I won’t ever feel older than you now LOL. I just can’t believe I’ve been supporting this boy for over two years now. A senior Belieber, eh? Haha. I still remember the first time I saw him on a magz. I told you, it was a request to put up him on the magz. I started to think he was an actor, hahaa. I started searching on Google who he was and I figured out he is a singer. A new artist. His 1^st album was released on 17^th September 2009. It called My World and I still remember I got it just days before Valentine. Yes, his first single, One Time, released on August. He is the second teenage singer after Stevie Wonder who hit Billboard Chart with 4 songs all at once. Proud of you, boy :’)

Back to the first time, I downloaded his single, One Time. And the first thought of me after listened it was “did I download it wrong? I thought Justin Bieber was a boy. And why is this ‘One Time’ singer is a girl?” that was mindfuck. Lol. I’m sure you agree with me. The old voice of Justin was so lame for boy. It was kinda girl’s voice. But for me, it was amazing listened to an awesome song. He is a talented artist. I knew it from the start. I don’t care what haters said that he’s more like girls. I thought so but what’s the matter? He has amazing voice than any boys. It’s different. He has a good vocal technique. No, awesome! His voice was so high even like girls. And I was dying in love with his magical awesome voice from the first time.

Since then, I started collect stuff of him. Magz, T-shirt, CDs, posters and anything bout him. That’s definitely me. I always wanted to collect all stuff and (wished) never missed one. I just want to have them all and no doubt to spend so much charge on them. I actually hate this kinda bad habit. That’s why I’m afraid to like anyone because I will do anything to get every thingy of em. Back to the top, yeah, I love him like crazy. His flip hair, his high voice, his attractive and funny face when he’s makin’ faces. Everything makes me going insane! But I’m telling you, the old Justin wasn’t handsome either hot. Yeah, hahaa it’s kinda funny when you say this kinda cheer face is handsome or so.

He was so umm, common face or what. The only thing that made him different was his flip hair. It was so trend. All of the boys around the world made it as a trend hairstyle. LOL. But I think the only one who proper to use it was his himself. And yeah, the first booming and very popular song was released. The Baby became hits on every charts. It could possibly be in the top positions. And the second album was released on March 23^rd. My Worlds 2.0, my second cds. This boy became my new addiction.

Yeah, that was me adoring this boy so much. But I missed his concert last year. That was my deep regret. I don’t know after being his number one fan all this time, I just missed it without any chance to get the tix. That was such an epicfail. And now he’s growing so fast like I couldn’t believe it at all. It’s like so yesterday when he said he loves girls and he wouldn’t doubt to having dates with fans but now he has a longlast relationship with his girlfriend, Selena Gomes. Break my heart easily.

He’s 18^th today. Almost three years passed quickly since the boy with gray hoodie singing very cheerfully with Usher. Nowadays, no flip hair or childish character but cool, hot and man swag he got. Yeah, he’s swagger a lot than the first time. I’m not blaming anyone but I think he’s changing he’s character so much because of his girlfriend. There’s bad and good sides for us, Beliebers. But it’s okay, I like him though. By the way I know there are songs that never get old for me. One Time, Common Denominator, One Less Lonely Girl, Overboard, Never Let You Go, and Fa La La. I love them most. Okay, I just don’t know why it is called 'most'. I like them all. Seriously.

Another reason of loving him for me because he has encouraged me so much. He becomes a hero for me all this time. He has showed us how to believe in everything because everything is reachable. Don’t care how high your dream, there MUST BE a way to straight to it. I know it seems too much, but instead I found something important in believe. You know it has strengthful meaning. You can be anything you want. You just have to dream it and believe it. Also with many effort and hard pray. Life is just to waste if you don’t use the dream itself. Just dreaming because it’s free HAHA. You know, Justin had always been a normal boy. He sang and uploaded it on YouTube. Who knows he would become this great and popular? Just with high dreams and faithful you could get the world. He’s not just an idol for me. He’s more like a reflection of what I always wanted to be. He can then why couldn’t we? He sings in front of all people. He makes his family proud. He travels around the world. He becomes the most guy that girls wanted the most. He was born to be somebody. And I believe I have a chance to be somebody too.

This time I’m thankfully to him. He made me proud as I am. He made me not afraid at all of dreaming high. He makes me proud to be a daydreamer LOL. I figured out that NEVER SAY NEVER words are really works out! It’s not easy to believe but if you have faith, anything can be done easily. That’s what he taught me. He taught me to be ME with no doubt. As I’m growing too, I don’t care of what outside him. I adore him inside, his heart is important. It’s not important his looks changed so much. No flip hair. No cheerful smile. The important thing is he still himself. Proud to be a heartthrob that start from nothing. A nobody from a small town turning into a rising star. A hero for much people, especially girls. And the important one is he never ignore fans. He loves us most. He proud to have Beliebers all the way. I know it’s ridiculous to realized that he don’t even know that I’m exist but at least I’m part of Beliebers and he loves Beliebers. PROUD and SWAG!

At the last, I don’t know if I can’t stop for being a Belieber. I don’t want to, perhaps. Everytime I see him it’s like a tingle on my stomach and says “Hey, you could be like him too” or “don’t lose faith. There’s always a way for you to get chance to meet him”. I told you one of my greatest dream is to meet him in person. And I wish if the time comes, nobody but us. No Selena lol. I’ve been waiting so long then it will be very helplessly with Selena around. Even they had have bunch of children I don’t care. Just back off when I had times with Justin! LOL. So yeah, I believe the right time will come when I’m ready for it. I thought I wasn’t ready to attend his concert. Maybe next chance I will. I don’t wanna lose my believe and faith in God. I always knew He gives the best for me.

Now, He's been very busy recording the new album BELIEVE. I wish I just could buy the new album. Seriously, I don't wanna miss it but I have no money enough this time. I have bunch of stuff I wanted to buy. Just wait for album to release please. And still planning to get a chance to attend his concert. Maybe next year. I don't know but i gotta prepare for it, do I? And I would like to show you a video of him and friends kinda lipsync Call Me Maybe from Carly Rae Japsen. I found it kinda funny things though there's a part of envious JELENA.

And yesterday Live My Life, Far East Movement ft. Justin Bieber was on iTunes. It feel like pay my yearn for Justin song all this time. Proud :D

Anyway, before the words run out I wanna say once again Happy Birthday to my favorite boy. You’re priceless to me. You’re the motivator of my life. You’re my everything even though you don’t think so. Wish me every luck. I wanna be like you! The dreams chaser. Believe In Everything Because Everything’s Reachable. That’s what BIEBER means. Thanks to your encouragement. They all are meaningful to me. I would never lose faith and hopes. Still NEVER SAY NEVER!

Hey, I don't know if it'll make sense or not but I feel like I gotta mention you that I've been dying addicted with Korean. I don't know but is it makes sense if I become an ELF? OMG I just can't admit it. It's kinda hard for me to be a Belieber then why do I wish to be an Elf at the same time. This Bieber Fever can't be more worse than it if I become two fans of different idol. Yeah, you're thinking what I'm thinking. That would be a bad idea. Just ignore this one. Kbye

“If you don’t dream big, what’s the use of dreaming? If there’s no faith, there’s no worth believing!”